an update to things
I'm being assured that this cyst I have is nothing to worry about. They claim that it is too small to be anything serious, and will most likely go away on its own. Even though they say that it probably isn't malignant, they are humoring me and have sent an order for a blood test to the lab to check for a specific cancer marker. All I have to do is head over and get it done. A follow-up ultrasound is also being ordered so see if this thing has indeed gone away. I still don't know if this has an effect on some other things going on (or not going on, as it were). My doctor continues to pass me off onto the nurses. I have talked to six different nurses regarding this, each time getting a little more of the picture. It took six nurses and three weeks for someone to finally order the follow-up that I needed.
I think that I'm taking everything fairly well. It's that whole "don't feel anything" response, that mode I went into everytime my Pop got sick and went into the hospital. I have a constant sick feeling at the bottom of my stomach, but I know my brain can't process any of this. If something bad does come out of all of this, I really am afraid of how I would react. I'm not severely emotionally unstable, but I'm unstable enough for it to not go very well.
I think that I'm taking everything fairly well. It's that whole "don't feel anything" response, that mode I went into everytime my Pop got sick and went into the hospital. I have a constant sick feeling at the bottom of my stomach, but I know my brain can't process any of this. If something bad does come out of all of this, I really am afraid of how I would react. I'm not severely emotionally unstable, but I'm unstable enough for it to not go very well.