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yes i will be a little pissed. why? i break up with jon and i don't really want to like anyone or date. i start talking to chris and i'm starting to like him and i'm fighting it. we talk every night for an hour to 2 hours. he stays busy with his job and it's been hard to hang out with him and get to know him, plus he knows i like him and if he doesn't. well he's just stupid. his phone is a pain in the ass, forever dropping our calls and such. so last night i go to post on his myspace to tell him to call when his phone starts wroking again. i see a girl left him a comment. ok i don't care who he hangs out with or talks to. we are not together and if we where, i still wouldn't care. but the girls puts "hey sweety i had fun today, your such a sweetheart." i stared at it and just felt this little stir of anger in my stomach. i go to her page, looking at her pictures she has a picture of chris, same one on his page. and under the picture she put "this is chris the guy i like, isn't he adorable." then that's when i get pissed off. i'm sitting here trying not to like any guy, i see this and trying to hang out with him and all. i'm pissed and i let him know. he said he ran into some friends and she was with them, hung out with them for 30 minutes and that he doesn't even like the girl and doesn't know how she found his myspace page. i brushed it off and told him i was going to bed. he said he will call me today.
so what else. i'm trying to get back into writing again. i'm still in the same SL as before, but haven't done any roleplaying. the past couple of weeks i've been roleplaying just a little. i want to get back into it. a friend of mine where going to do a mini sl, but he's never around so.. yea. the other people i use to roleplay with (rhi, k, ke, and heather) they seem to be wanting to start some rps or are in one and i seem to escape their mind. which i don't blame them, since i'm never around. actually i am. i'm on the computer all the time, forever on aim. if i'm not on, my away message is up. yet i talk to none of them, unless i call them and the only one i can ever get ahold of is rhi. i'm not worried about her not calling me, she has her reason's and i understnad them. ke i don't talk to ever, heather .. where not that close, and k. i would expect more from him. hearing from him once every ... 6 months if not something i like. ke is wanting to start an underworld board. she want's to run it with rhi and k. it's nice to know she thinks of me. i go on my yuko name and browse the people i know, page. we where all on phs together, but no one has mentioned to me that there is a talk about a phs reunion. i feel hurt by all of this. i know i push people away and i don't try. cause when i do try, i get slapped in the face. but you know i am a person and would like to be included in things.
fuck life and goodbye.
so what else. i'm trying to get back into writing again. i'm still in the same SL as before, but haven't done any roleplaying. the past couple of weeks i've been roleplaying just a little. i want to get back into it. a friend of mine where going to do a mini sl, but he's never around so.. yea. the other people i use to roleplay with (rhi, k, ke, and heather) they seem to be wanting to start some rps or are in one and i seem to escape their mind. which i don't blame them, since i'm never around. actually i am. i'm on the computer all the time, forever on aim. if i'm not on, my away message is up. yet i talk to none of them, unless i call them and the only one i can ever get ahold of is rhi. i'm not worried about her not calling me, she has her reason's and i understnad them. ke i don't talk to ever, heather .. where not that close, and k. i would expect more from him. hearing from him once every ... 6 months if not something i like. ke is wanting to start an underworld board. she want's to run it with rhi and k. it's nice to know she thinks of me. i go on my yuko name and browse the people i know, page. we where all on phs together, but no one has mentioned to me that there is a talk about a phs reunion. i feel hurt by all of this. i know i push people away and i don't try. cause when i do try, i get slapped in the face. but you know i am a person and would like to be included in things.
fuck life and goodbye.