In the end... there can be only one.
Once again sitting here.
Up-Date: Branched Military Police, Reserve
Commissioning 27 Jan 2006 @ 1100 hrs
Last day of internship 12 December 2005
Next APFT 7 DEC
Well here is the good news guys. The woman in my life that most of you may or may not know about, Hillary, is still around.
The story: Things with Tara went to hell... (for which some of you were overjoyed, heh) Soon after prolly a week or so later after it became apparent whatever Tara's feelings or motivations she was doing her best to rid herself of me in her life... I took what remained of my pride and started to hang out with my few friends.. (not that there are few in number but few are still in this area as most are in the military or away at college) I only had a short time before I was shipped off to Ft Lewis, WA for training. So I made a few calls and decided the best way to get over the things that I knew would be a hinderance at my training which would consist largely of my being alone among strangers would be to make more friends. So after speaking with my meager friends about who they knew that would be interested in hanging out I was rewarded with a completely blind date. (only a date in that she was female, it was as a friendly meeting) So however much time passed and then I was to meet her (and my friends) off of 301 at the A&W thing... We all did. I had nothing to go on other than she liked to read books... wonderful description I knew but I was looking for good company so I wasnt overly worried. What she turned out to be was a lot of fun. 5'3 110 lbs light blue eyes and light brown almost blonde hair. She was nervous and we still talk about our reactions to eachother. We went to arundel mills... ate at Gillians (jillians?) and saw a movie. Though she was too nervous to eat very much. I was my usual self... she didnt run away screaming so I think at this point thats a plus. Saw the movie... went back to our cars at the A&W place. Well we both decided that we had a good time together and exchanged numbers and hung out several more times before i shipped off to hell. Prior to that she wrote down my address and i wrote her while i was there when I could. She sent me letters which was a large help. She even sent me a picture that made it to me at the odd point of being in the field, it did survive however. I called her a couple times some that were extreemly late by the time i got to use the damn pay phone. However her father being retired active air force, her parents didnt mind. Anyway, long story short... we ended up seeing eachother again when I came home and things were and are very nice. Keep in mind we werent anything more than freidns at any point here... but eventually it just happens (NOT SEX) I personally dont like titles but everyone deserves a fair chance. This woman who has taken the time to write me and listen and hang out and be there and drive to see me deserves a chance. We dont know exactly what it is we didnt know what exactly we felt for eachother but it would appear at this point to be a more pure love that either of us has felt before. So I had to make a choice in order to be fair and the choice is her...
In truth I would have wanted to give my ex a chance at some point but I this is only fair. Tara had her chance now its Hillary's turn.
I cant predict the future nor do I wish to. I will be the last of my family to be a lot of things. To be independant, to be married and to have a family but thats fine with me i'm in no rush to barge into what life has to offer...
I cant rightly know where things are going to take me at this point but I know i'm happy and this isnt something I rushed into. So far the other half is doing a lot of the things I thought most would but none until her understood.
She goes to church... (not catholic, thank god)
She is finishing school and will be a teacher...
She will be able to take care of herself...
She is independant...
Thats just how things are for right now. When its right you know and this is what is right, right now.
In the end there can be only one.
Up-Date: Branched Military Police, Reserve
Commissioning 27 Jan 2006 @ 1100 hrs
Last day of internship 12 December 2005
Next APFT 7 DEC
Well here is the good news guys. The woman in my life that most of you may or may not know about, Hillary, is still around.
The story: Things with Tara went to hell... (for which some of you were overjoyed, heh) Soon after prolly a week or so later after it became apparent whatever Tara's feelings or motivations she was doing her best to rid herself of me in her life... I took what remained of my pride and started to hang out with my few friends.. (not that there are few in number but few are still in this area as most are in the military or away at college) I only had a short time before I was shipped off to Ft Lewis, WA for training. So I made a few calls and decided the best way to get over the things that I knew would be a hinderance at my training which would consist largely of my being alone among strangers would be to make more friends. So after speaking with my meager friends about who they knew that would be interested in hanging out I was rewarded with a completely blind date. (only a date in that she was female, it was as a friendly meeting) So however much time passed and then I was to meet her (and my friends) off of 301 at the A&W thing... We all did. I had nothing to go on other than she liked to read books... wonderful description I knew but I was looking for good company so I wasnt overly worried. What she turned out to be was a lot of fun. 5'3 110 lbs light blue eyes and light brown almost blonde hair. She was nervous and we still talk about our reactions to eachother. We went to arundel mills... ate at Gillians (jillians?) and saw a movie. Though she was too nervous to eat very much. I was my usual self... she didnt run away screaming so I think at this point thats a plus. Saw the movie... went back to our cars at the A&W place. Well we both decided that we had a good time together and exchanged numbers and hung out several more times before i shipped off to hell. Prior to that she wrote down my address and i wrote her while i was there when I could. She sent me letters which was a large help. She even sent me a picture that made it to me at the odd point of being in the field, it did survive however. I called her a couple times some that were extreemly late by the time i got to use the damn pay phone. However her father being retired active air force, her parents didnt mind. Anyway, long story short... we ended up seeing eachother again when I came home and things were and are very nice. Keep in mind we werent anything more than freidns at any point here... but eventually it just happens (NOT SEX) I personally dont like titles but everyone deserves a fair chance. This woman who has taken the time to write me and listen and hang out and be there and drive to see me deserves a chance. We dont know exactly what it is we didnt know what exactly we felt for eachother but it would appear at this point to be a more pure love that either of us has felt before. So I had to make a choice in order to be fair and the choice is her...
In truth I would have wanted to give my ex a chance at some point but I this is only fair. Tara had her chance now its Hillary's turn.
I cant predict the future nor do I wish to. I will be the last of my family to be a lot of things. To be independant, to be married and to have a family but thats fine with me i'm in no rush to barge into what life has to offer...
I cant rightly know where things are going to take me at this point but I know i'm happy and this isnt something I rushed into. So far the other half is doing a lot of the things I thought most would but none until her understood.
She goes to church... (not catholic, thank god)
She is finishing school and will be a teacher...
She will be able to take care of herself...
She is independant...
Thats just how things are for right now. When its right you know and this is what is right, right now.
In the end there can be only one.