ahhh will the pain never end ???!!!!
im really sick and tierd of everyones shit!!! those stupid people dont noe me who the fuck do they think they are they cant tell me what is wrong woth me only i noe that and if i choose to share that with anybody it sure in a hell wont be them!!!! i dont tell shit to noe one i prefer that every one thinks i live a great life than to let them noe how the fuck i really feel!!! im literally dying very fucking slowly and painfully and i just want it to stop!!!!! ahhhh i hate it right now i dont want to deal with these feeling i have not i look at myself in shame and fucking disgust i cant stand my fucking face !!!! i hate everything abotu myslef and people reminding me it just mekes me feel worthless and u noe i think iam cus all ive done is hurt every one specialy the peolpe i love !!! and that sux its like watching them die and not doing anything about it!!! im suck a fucking bitch i cant stand myself!!!! i figured that as hard as i try i wont change i keep hurting people! ahhh and i hate myself for that!!!! and i really dont noe why the fuck im writting this!!!!people are probably going to say "oh ! that doesnt sound like miriam shes always happy" but im just tierd of hiding how i feel and if they dont like it then they can fuck offf cus im doing this for me so i can get some of it off my chest!!! "this is the sadest story i hope u ever hear its the silence of blood sweat and tears!!!" this is my favorite song by the silence cus it just describes me or so i think but im pretty lame so fuck it! hmmm also i want to apologize to every one i made feel like shit im really sorry !!!!
im going to goe noe bye bye love u guys for reading this!!!!