What do I want?
Been thinking a lot lately...which must be because my Pooka is gone and the house has been so quiet.
I really am going insane without him.
Everyday, for 16 years he was there, waiting for me to come home, following me around, cuddling with me on the couch...every late night art project...he was there with me. Other people would call his name and he'd come to me instead...he was just 'mine'.
I really miss him...so much.
All this quiet has left me thinking about my life...my past...and what I want.
Obviously, I want my dog back. I am sane enough to know that is impossible, but If I get to be a spoiled child and have wishes granted without any ties to reality...that would be number one at this point.
I want to continue designing and doing production work, so I guess I'll stick with my job. All jobs have their drama and issues but the customers are really warming up to me and I am learning a lot about production equipment. I could see myself running a studio one day...so it's good to know these things.
...bah. Reality.
If you want something, but know even if you had it...it would never last or lead to a happy ending...is it still worth going for?
I really am going insane without him.
Everyday, for 16 years he was there, waiting for me to come home, following me around, cuddling with me on the couch...every late night art project...he was there with me. Other people would call his name and he'd come to me instead...he was just 'mine'.
I really miss him...so much.
All this quiet has left me thinking about my life...my past...and what I want.
Obviously, I want my dog back. I am sane enough to know that is impossible, but If I get to be a spoiled child and have wishes granted without any ties to reality...that would be number one at this point.
I want to continue designing and doing production work, so I guess I'll stick with my job. All jobs have their drama and issues but the customers are really warming up to me and I am learning a lot about production equipment. I could see myself running a studio one day...so it's good to know these things.
...bah. Reality.
If you want something, but know even if you had it...it would never last or lead to a happy ending...is it still worth going for?