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Turns out a cute guy I've talked to on MySpace is my neighbor. He lives in the building next door. Craziness. Think we might go out to a bar sometime. *shrugs* You know, somewhere public so in case he's a serial killer he can't rape & murder me.
Rich came over and we watched 3 hours of Big Love together yesterday. Later I met up with Helena, Brice, & John for a couple of drinks at Surly Girl. Other than that I did absolutely nothing all day. I came home and watched Conan the Destroyer because I like to be lame, stayed awake til 6am, then passed out on the couch.
Today I was gonna wake up at 10am but slept til 4 instead. I spent the afternoon doing.... nothing. I fail. I have no motivation whatsoever. Someone give me a swift kick in the ass.
Went to Copper's for dinner later tonight, then we went to 185 for a quick drink, and had a grocery adventure at Giant Eagle.
The rest of the night.... I ate 7 M&M cookies and watched Bill Maher. Once again I accomplished nothing.
I have a piling list of todo's that I cannot get myself to check off. My mood has ever so slightly gotten better - maybe because I've just accepted the inevitable. Still.... I can't shake this funk. Instead of doing something productive I just stare at the same computer screens over n over. I'm not even entertained. I just space out. What the fuck is wrong with me?
And now here it is, 2:30am and I wanted to get up at 7 (fat chance). I should just cut my losses, get up after a somewhat decent amount of sleep and try to make the most of my day. Perhaps pay my overdue car insurance or Macy's bill. Perhaps schedule my house cleaning, call my attorney, do some laundry, finally exercise again, go to the grocery, etc. The list goes on & on.... Either way I need to just DO something.
I guess I'm goin out to dinner & drinks with Amber & Megan this Thursday. Should be interesting and completely out of my element - I like those girls though. I can only imagine the "company" we'll have... ugh.... something tells me I'll get to be an asshole to a handful of douchebags that night. Oh well.... I hear the drinks are free. *shrugs*
I'm hoping work isn't too dreadful this week. If all goes well and I make my "goal" I plan on driving up to Detroit to catch a day of the tattoo convention and pay Vivid a belated birthday visit. Our time in Vegas was cut short due to our deadly sickness.
I plan on going down to Texas to work with Hannah next month too. I don't really want to, but any type of escape that comes with extra income is an opportunity I have to grab right now.
Basically I need to force myself to get/stay busy when I'm by myself to keep my mind off things and spend the rest of the time around friends. Thank goodness for people like Micah & Hooper who come to visit. I think my small string of sanity depends on it.
So here goes.... go to bed, start a new day, be motivated, get things done... *crosses fingers*
Rich came over and we watched 3 hours of Big Love together yesterday. Later I met up with Helena, Brice, & John for a couple of drinks at Surly Girl. Other than that I did absolutely nothing all day. I came home and watched Conan the Destroyer because I like to be lame, stayed awake til 6am, then passed out on the couch.
Today I was gonna wake up at 10am but slept til 4 instead. I spent the afternoon doing.... nothing. I fail. I have no motivation whatsoever. Someone give me a swift kick in the ass.
Went to Copper's for dinner later tonight, then we went to 185 for a quick drink, and had a grocery adventure at Giant Eagle.
The rest of the night.... I ate 7 M&M cookies and watched Bill Maher. Once again I accomplished nothing.
I have a piling list of todo's that I cannot get myself to check off. My mood has ever so slightly gotten better - maybe because I've just accepted the inevitable. Still.... I can't shake this funk. Instead of doing something productive I just stare at the same computer screens over n over. I'm not even entertained. I just space out. What the fuck is wrong with me?
And now here it is, 2:30am and I wanted to get up at 7 (fat chance). I should just cut my losses, get up after a somewhat decent amount of sleep and try to make the most of my day. Perhaps pay my overdue car insurance or Macy's bill. Perhaps schedule my house cleaning, call my attorney, do some laundry, finally exercise again, go to the grocery, etc. The list goes on & on.... Either way I need to just DO something.
I guess I'm goin out to dinner & drinks with Amber & Megan this Thursday. Should be interesting and completely out of my element - I like those girls though. I can only imagine the "company" we'll have... ugh.... something tells me I'll get to be an asshole to a handful of douchebags that night. Oh well.... I hear the drinks are free. *shrugs*
I'm hoping work isn't too dreadful this week. If all goes well and I make my "goal" I plan on driving up to Detroit to catch a day of the tattoo convention and pay Vivid a belated birthday visit. Our time in Vegas was cut short due to our deadly sickness.
I plan on going down to Texas to work with Hannah next month too. I don't really want to, but any type of escape that comes with extra income is an opportunity I have to grab right now.
Basically I need to force myself to get/stay busy when I'm by myself to keep my mind off things and spend the rest of the time around friends. Thank goodness for people like Micah & Hooper who come to visit. I think my small string of sanity depends on it.
So here goes.... go to bed, start a new day, be motivated, get things done... *crosses fingers*