Last Night...Car Crash
This is more to capture the memory than anything...
Tomorrow is my birthday...but this entry is about last night...
So last night I lost my car...and I almost lost myself...
I was alone...in my car...on the way to CVS...
I was contemplating walking but then decided to drive...I wish I had walked...
I got distracted...don't remember why...I only took my eyes off the road for a second...
I was completely sober...
I looked back through the windshield...my car had drifted...I hit the curb and rode up onto it...
Two tires on the road...two tires on the curb...I had no control of the vehicle...
The car hit a tree...this all happened in a split second...
The car flipped...my seatbelt held me tightly in my seat...the car landed in the road on its side...the driver's side
When I heard the window shatter...I looked to my left and saw the pavement three inches from my face scraping by as I hung sideways...
Still tightly secured by my seatbelt...I could see the shattered glass lying on the pavement and then slowly disappear...
I had realized that I must have closed my eyes for a second right after I had hit the tree...I opened them again at some point...but I'm positive they were shut...
Only for a split second though...
I had no concept of time...
But I had enough time to think...this is the part where I get very badly hurt...
I even literally thought I was going to wake up...it seemed too fake...
The car flipped back onto its wheels after scraping on its side for a while...thank god for that...
I got out of the car in a heartbeat...my lights were still on...I later reached in (through the non-existent window) and turned them off...
I also got my glasses (1 week old...now broken) and my sunglasses (1 week old...not broken and still in their case)...
Before that though...I noticed my hand was covered in blood...cuts from the broken glass...many small cuts...
I couldn't feel a thing...only my heart which hurt...from shock and from the impact from the seatbelt...it still hurts bad...
I basically felt no pain though at the time...I could have died...I am too lucky...
I can still play guitar...had my hand been out the window...I would have no arm...crushed under the car and scraped along the pavement...
Leaving my arm behind...
Or my head...
But I was lucky...
The cops came...and the ambulance...I have a lot of respect for EMTs
I went to the hospital...got checked out...I'm okay...but you should see my car...
It's totalled...not worth fixing...
I have no car now...I'll share my sister's...
I could have died...I'm scared...and confused...
I want to get on with my life...and completely forget...but the funny thing is...I don't remember much...it was too unreal...
All I remember are fragments...I barely remember at all...and I was completely SOBER
That's why I'm so afraid...
Had I been drunk or doing something else wrong...It would be more preventable next time...but I literally just turned my head for one second...
That happens all the time wen anyone drives...I must have dragged the wheel with me when my head turned...unkowingly...
I am terrified to get back in a car...but I don't have much of a choice...
Anyone good at navigating Jersey by bus?
Tomorrow is my birthday...but this entry is about last night...
So last night I lost my car...and I almost lost myself...
I was alone...in my car...on the way to CVS...
I was contemplating walking but then decided to drive...I wish I had walked...
I got distracted...don't remember why...I only took my eyes off the road for a second...
I was completely sober...
I looked back through the windshield...my car had drifted...I hit the curb and rode up onto it...
Two tires on the road...two tires on the curb...I had no control of the vehicle...
The car hit a tree...this all happened in a split second...
The car flipped...my seatbelt held me tightly in my seat...the car landed in the road on its side...the driver's side
When I heard the window shatter...I looked to my left and saw the pavement three inches from my face scraping by as I hung sideways...
Still tightly secured by my seatbelt...I could see the shattered glass lying on the pavement and then slowly disappear...
I had realized that I must have closed my eyes for a second right after I had hit the tree...I opened them again at some point...but I'm positive they were shut...
Only for a split second though...
I had no concept of time...
But I had enough time to think...this is the part where I get very badly hurt...
I even literally thought I was going to wake up...it seemed too fake...
The car flipped back onto its wheels after scraping on its side for a while...thank god for that...
I got out of the car in a heartbeat...my lights were still on...I later reached in (through the non-existent window) and turned them off...
I also got my glasses (1 week old...now broken) and my sunglasses (1 week old...not broken and still in their case)...
Before that though...I noticed my hand was covered in blood...cuts from the broken glass...many small cuts...
I couldn't feel a thing...only my heart which hurt...from shock and from the impact from the seatbelt...it still hurts bad...
I basically felt no pain though at the time...I could have died...I am too lucky...
I can still play guitar...had my hand been out the window...I would have no arm...crushed under the car and scraped along the pavement...
Leaving my arm behind...
Or my head...
But I was lucky...
The cops came...and the ambulance...I have a lot of respect for EMTs
I went to the hospital...got checked out...I'm okay...but you should see my car...
It's totalled...not worth fixing...
I have no car now...I'll share my sister's...
I could have died...I'm scared...and confused...
I want to get on with my life...and completely forget...but the funny thing is...I don't remember much...it was too unreal...
All I remember are fragments...I barely remember at all...and I was completely SOBER
That's why I'm so afraid...
Had I been drunk or doing something else wrong...It would be more preventable next time...but I literally just turned my head for one second...
That happens all the time wen anyone drives...I must have dragged the wheel with me when my head turned...unkowingly...
I am terrified to get back in a car...but I don't have much of a choice...
Anyone good at navigating Jersey by bus?