JYM
Just got back from JYM.. (junior yearly meeting, quaker thing)..
Can't stop crying.. I miss everyone so much and being a bgf really made the whole thing so much more intense.. and I'm too old to go again now... Just emotional. And I miss my basegroup loads.
I know I'm not going to get a chance to do the facilitatory thing again. partly I'm relieved, it's hard work, but I just can't believe it's over already.
And I'm never going to be able to listen to return to innocence again without crying like crazy.
Half of me just wants some time alone rather than going back into the real world and seeing how crap everything is in real life, the other half just wants to jump back in and forget everything.. I dunno if that'd be healthy though, feeling pretty different.
Need some sleep and loads of cuddles, and I want to go to JYM now.. but I may well be on the chldrens meeting rota.. wonder if I could swap at all.
Can't stop crying.. I miss everyone so much and being a bgf really made the whole thing so much more intense.. and I'm too old to go again now... Just emotional. And I miss my basegroup loads.
I know I'm not going to get a chance to do the facilitatory thing again. partly I'm relieved, it's hard work, but I just can't believe it's over already.
And I'm never going to be able to listen to return to innocence again without crying like crazy.
Half of me just wants some time alone rather than going back into the real world and seeing how crap everything is in real life, the other half just wants to jump back in and forget everything.. I dunno if that'd be healthy though, feeling pretty different.
Need some sleep and loads of cuddles, and I want to go to JYM now.. but I may well be on the chldrens meeting rota.. wonder if I could swap at all.