And I'm back again
Tired. Haven't been so tired since... BYTF probably. So not that long.
This summer has actually been amazing for once. Which is nice. And there's JYF soon, and Notting Hill carny on Monday if I can persuade my parents to let me go. Hopefully I'll manage to see lots of people from this week there, maybe.
My head feels like it's full of cotton wool, and like my ears are stuffed with it, everything aches, and I have a sore throat from making pirate noises too much on Thursday. Twas worth it though.
Best thing is after all my whining and worrying about putting on weight from all the food over the past week, I've lost 2 pounds or so, even after a burger king earlier (I feel so greasy now).
Not much else to update really. Long lists of great people I really need to start keeping in contact with properly, long lists of stuff I want to do before school starts again too...
And I need to talk to all the people who seem to have gone insane in my absence. I don't know how I manage to keep things vaguely balanced, but I seem to somehow.
Hehe Becky to Jenny: "I love you! You make me feel normal!" (Jenny was pressed up against a window in her underwear at the time) (She was trying to close it, not just being an idiot.) (And I think it might've been me who asked her to close it too. Oops hehe.)
Urgh miss SC, miss BYTF, miss JYF (in a sort of, I'll be there again in 2 weeks anyway way), miss Amecon and Cropredy and murder mysteries and Alton Towers. But mostly I miss all the people I know.
It's sort of weird. I just don't feel anything. I don't feel sad Conference is over, or particularly happy it happened I s'pose. I don't feel glad about my exam results. Maybe a little proud, but not as overjoyed as I expected... I just feel worried about going back to school, and losing friends, and all the stuff that's happened since I went away that I don't know about yet. I'm just blank. Maybe I just need some more sleep.
Oh yeah, and the other thing. Still unsure about Quakerism. I love the silence, and all the ideas and so on... but this week really made me realise 1) how right wing I am compared to many people there 2) I'm more cynical than ever before and even conference couldn't change that. Just as well. 3) I'm stronger than I've ever been before, as a person.
3 is good. The other two not so much. Living your ideals is hard though. I will put effort in I think, but then again I think that after every Quaker event and still leave my computer on all the time, still use the tumble drier too much, still eat meat that is very unlikely to have been farmed in a way I feel comfortable with...
*yawns*
I'll try to get to JYM again I think, and see if that helps perhaps. A second time would be amazing anyway.
This summer has actually been amazing for once. Which is nice. And there's JYF soon, and Notting Hill carny on Monday if I can persuade my parents to let me go. Hopefully I'll manage to see lots of people from this week there, maybe.
My head feels like it's full of cotton wool, and like my ears are stuffed with it, everything aches, and I have a sore throat from making pirate noises too much on Thursday. Twas worth it though.
Best thing is after all my whining and worrying about putting on weight from all the food over the past week, I've lost 2 pounds or so, even after a burger king earlier (I feel so greasy now).
Not much else to update really. Long lists of great people I really need to start keeping in contact with properly, long lists of stuff I want to do before school starts again too...
And I need to talk to all the people who seem to have gone insane in my absence. I don't know how I manage to keep things vaguely balanced, but I seem to somehow.
Hehe Becky to Jenny: "I love you! You make me feel normal!" (Jenny was pressed up against a window in her underwear at the time) (She was trying to close it, not just being an idiot.) (And I think it might've been me who asked her to close it too. Oops hehe.)
Urgh miss SC, miss BYTF, miss JYF (in a sort of, I'll be there again in 2 weeks anyway way), miss Amecon and Cropredy and murder mysteries and Alton Towers. But mostly I miss all the people I know.
It's sort of weird. I just don't feel anything. I don't feel sad Conference is over, or particularly happy it happened I s'pose. I don't feel glad about my exam results. Maybe a little proud, but not as overjoyed as I expected... I just feel worried about going back to school, and losing friends, and all the stuff that's happened since I went away that I don't know about yet. I'm just blank. Maybe I just need some more sleep.
Oh yeah, and the other thing. Still unsure about Quakerism. I love the silence, and all the ideas and so on... but this week really made me realise 1) how right wing I am compared to many people there 2) I'm more cynical than ever before and even conference couldn't change that. Just as well. 3) I'm stronger than I've ever been before, as a person.
3 is good. The other two not so much. Living your ideals is hard though. I will put effort in I think, but then again I think that after every Quaker event and still leave my computer on all the time, still use the tumble drier too much, still eat meat that is very unlikely to have been farmed in a way I feel comfortable with...
*yawns*
I'll try to get to JYM again I think, and see if that helps perhaps. A second time would be amazing anyway.