Don't judge by the cover
Yo, Aoi desu~
Recently my timelines full with Baptism's pictures, and I know who just got the baptism.
Meanwhile last Sunday the topic was about ' come to who needed '.
I remember one of part ( sorry I forgot the source ) ' I ( Jesus ) come for sick people, not the healthy one '
WIth this topic, remind me with all question when I came to new place... church...
1st, just simple and usual question like your home place, your works, and your previous church.
But when it come to ' special event ' and tried to do the Church Service, I always got same question and statement...
- Your previous church let you to do service even you don't get baptism?
- In my place ( someone who shared about her's place ), you must get baptism if want to do the service
I did not blame my previous church ( because I more learn a lot at there ), and just feeling funny when priest or some leader organisation in there,
seeing me not join the ' holy communion ' . After the event, they asked me ' why and why ', even offer me to join the baptism's class.
Yup, I had my own reasons why I still don't want get the baptism.
Not only I still not ready, not about change my religion issue. This's more about result and personality.
Whenever people started to asked and proposed me to join, I always said ' Baptism is a personal choice.
No one can force. My services I did was from my heart. If you guys didn't agree, its okay. I will come to anyone who need me. If not, Its okay '
Maybe my words look so harsh and not nice...
My big reasons , ' can you guarantee for people who got baptism will nice and good like what they learn ? '
X3
All experienced I got not far and really closed which from my family, specially my dad.
Sorry for said this, but this's the truth which maybe only a little believe with my words.
My dad was teacher and active in his previous church before. His services to church not normal in my eyes.
Why? how can a man who a father too, teach other children to love each others like family when himself always focus to the church ?
In short words...
His times only for church service and his students. When about his family, its at the 2nd or last place, maybe?
why? simple questions..
- what will you feel when your father more know with other kid's activity or studies but he didn't know what his own child's studies?
X3
My mom? I won't compare him with her. Not because she was nice, but she had different situation..
When my dad's concern was all about church... my mom was about money...
X3
From them, I learn a lot. Yup, a lot about church service and money... how should I do when want to do the church service and money...
Ah...
To be honest I feel sad sometimes. Even you had same religion, sometimes they ( specially when had high status ) look you down,only because you don't get the baptism.
So why I still not get it? with simple reasons...
' which better? look someone who had high label ( baptism ) and look nice but not good with the attitude, the way to talk and their life?
OR look someone who don't have any label but keep tried the best from what they learn? '
X3
Better I'm not get that than become one of them who like wearing mask~