My Little ( sad ) Treasure
Yo~ Aoi desu ^___^/
Yesterday I just cleaned my little drawers and found some treasures which already more than 3 or 5 year I didn't think to open it.
I got some papers or some things which already worn-out but more over of that, this things really make me feel nostalgic.
From some kind of snack and traditional's seller when I still in elementary school until Junior High Schools.
Maybe kids in these day never had or played some 'games' like this. Actually its so interesting ^^.
My first ( and maybe my last ) trip to another country which to my favorite one, "Japan".
I went there around 2003. I went to Sega Game Centre, Tokyo DisneyLand- Disney Sea & Universal Studio.
I hope one day I can go to Japan again.
My little collection from Senior High School with my ( former ) BestFriend.
( *our final test card -3rd grade-; ties -Left_Mine & Right _MyBF's ; our key locker since 1st - 3rd grade ;
HP's pocket which made by her own ; keychain from our 'nickname' ; and our last words which write at CD's )
She was the one who invite me to create a 'time capsule'.
This things just from the small one which I collected it by my own,
cause we still had another 'big box' which more filled with our memories.
Actually I still had more than this but these all were the best one ever... Somehow I wanna 'cry' specially for the last one. My best memories with my friend in 3 years. If I re-think about my memories with my former 'BestFriend', somehow... its remind me with 'Takumi-kun's story. You can laugh or not believing my stories, but what I can said was... my former BestFriend... really look like 'Gii'. She really helping me out to having some friends and because of her, I more understand about 'life', 'friends' and 'family'. I really glad for having her as my best one so I can feel happy and enjoying my daily life...
but...
Times really change everything....
Sadly, we must be separated cause we had different 'goal' & 'background'. She chose to go to overseas for continuing her study when I still in my own country. Nothing happen between us after one year, but.. day by day... month by month... and year by year... I feel 'something' from her. I feel like 'I don't understand about her anymore'. I more sure about that when I tried to shared my sadness and hope for getting any support from her... but sadly... She gave her 'words' like the ordinary one.. Not from someone who already know or understand me.. but more like my 'ordinary' friends... When I tried to understand... somehow I more understand my situation... In 3 years.. I just realize... she more look like... ;using' me for her sake although she did 'something' for me which I'll never can do nor have.. giving me some expensive's stuff.. In 1st year, she really help me out and really look like 'Gii' but... at the 2nd and 3rd... she more like... 'Izumi' & 'Arata'. I ever stop to talk to her... but... I don't know why... why I can so easily to forgive even I know.. I always getting hurt by her actions or words...
Since that, I choose to break my 'connection' with her... So now, more than 3 years I never contact or getting any messages from her... I don't know.. maybe.. She.. already forget me... but, I don't care anymore... Remember this all really make me sad and whenever I tried to forget it, these memories come back to me which made me more remember all pains and happiness. My friendship memories really look like imagination... so wonderful and really grateful for all her kindness in 3 years..
Now I must to keep move on and face all my day life even so hard and rough....
jya~ oyasumi goodnitez ^___^ have a nice days ^___^