Advent Confessional

[aongeli]

The church I attend here in Warsaw is holding confessions during advent; I am unable to attend but I need it just the same. I have been realizing some things about myself, and I need to confess; so why not here? Most of you who even still read this, I trust not to judge me too harshly. Not sure I'm ready to throw these ideas around where my parents

Comments

[blindaurora]

I am afraid too. I do not pretend to know exactly how you feel, but I simpathize very much. And I love you. Your discription of your experience sounds very much like how I felt while living in Boone and after I returned to JC for a long time.

You are precious to me Angel, even if you are scared to apply for jobs in the big city, and haven't looked all that hard for a good one. This is part of who you are, and you are a valuable and lovable and wonderful creation. You are okay. And I believe you will find your place.

My only other suggestion is to really take those things that make you FREAK OUT and feel like you might just turn your skin inside out in TERROR, one.... minute... at... a time. Baby baby steps. And also, you have got to be nice to yourself, in the way you talk to yourself. Be kind. How would you talk to this Angel person if she wasn't you? You are amazing, and no one should ever yell at or berate you. I find that one of the things I fear the most (in that paralyzing, nonproductive way) is what I will say to myself if something doesn't work out. <3