I can' t do this on my own
~Jesus Take the wheel, Take it from my hands, Cause I can't do this on my own, I'm letting go, Give me one more chance save me from this road I'm on, Jesus take the wheel!~
I don't know I just feel like crying. I miss you and I don't want to. And I'm mad cause I hate liking you and I just feel dirty. And my life sucks and I hate it and I wonder...hhmmmmm...*thinks* nvm...only one person would get it and I just wonder what it would feel like to...uh...ya...Well like someone once said," Where are those cars when you need one,eh?"..
So heres my pathetic life.
My family keeps asking me whats wrong and I don't know. I feeel fine but appreetnly I'm not...(go figure) and my friends well, there my friends, like I just feel like I get them anymore, like they have moved on without me. I don't know. All I want it for Jesus to take the wheel, cause I can't do this on my own. Take it, Take it from me. I have to do a fricken speech on Monday and then on Ttuesday I have a fricken practical exam. If I swore I'd be doing it right now..*%$#%^&#$*%&$&$* So there, and if I beleived in suicide I'd have killed my self several times over by now. But I don't, I want to live, i can live, I can handle this....ok I can't...Ya I know, I don't have it that bad off. But I'm not a really strong person, I'm shy, I lack in confidence and I'm just gaaahhh...I can do this,I can, I can, I can't. I just need a break. I'm sorry...sorry for everything...I just can't handle it...I'm sorry if I ever hurt you, put you down or done anything to you. I'm sorry.
~Jule
I don't know I just feel like crying. I miss you and I don't want to. And I'm mad cause I hate liking you and I just feel dirty. And my life sucks and I hate it and I wonder...hhmmmmm...*thinks* nvm...only one person would get it and I just wonder what it would feel like to...uh...ya...Well like someone once said," Where are those cars when you need one,eh?"..
So heres my pathetic life.
My family keeps asking me whats wrong and I don't know. I feeel fine but appreetnly I'm not...(go figure) and my friends well, there my friends, like I just feel like I get them anymore, like they have moved on without me. I don't know. All I want it for Jesus to take the wheel, cause I can't do this on my own. Take it, Take it from me. I have to do a fricken speech on Monday and then on Ttuesday I have a fricken practical exam. If I swore I'd be doing it right now..*%$#%^&#$*%&$&$* So there, and if I beleived in suicide I'd have killed my self several times over by now. But I don't, I want to live, i can live, I can handle this....ok I can't...Ya I know, I don't have it that bad off. But I'm not a really strong person, I'm shy, I lack in confidence and I'm just gaaahhh...I can do this,I can, I can, I can't. I just need a break. I'm sorry...sorry for everything...I just can't handle it...I'm sorry if I ever hurt you, put you down or done anything to you. I'm sorry.
~Jule