I Hurt, Not Because I Hurt Myself. . . Because My Lovely Selene Comes First
I was on the brink of losing one of the most important people I've ever had the pleasure of meeting. Through all the pain I went through for her, for anything to be honest. . . I'd kill to be close to her. Though in a sense she's my ex, she's still my best friend. In some cases, she's still my lover, however, our close relationship. . . . is based on trust and our compassion to help one another.
After the whole business with the two you-know-who's, Selene wasn't herself. I didn't trust her to be at the Palace, so I took her back to Asher and I's apartment, to keep watch of her. She was trembling a lot and I almost was frightened that she was mostly reduced to that state. At first, I had no idea on what the hell I was doing, but more importantly. . . I realized that Selene needed those she cared about to be with her, and to not give up on her.
So after everyone left the room, she and I had a talk. She told me everything that she's been wanting to admit to me and or say to me. . . atleast when she felt ready. Some of it broke my own heart, but even still, I wanted to know what was going on in her mind. And she wanted to know the same. And I indulged her in everything that I've been neglecting to tell her, due to fear and or shame. . . And she welcomed it with open arms. Which surprised me. Even though she said I could talk to her about anything, I just felt as though a huge weight has been completely lifted off my being.
There were even moments when Selene and I would kiss and or indulge ourselves in one another, not for sex, but for comfort. I found it really cute when afterwords, she'd blush and apologize when she really didn't have to. I told her that I'd given myself up for her. She was even so distraught, she wanted sex for comfort. . . And when I told her no, she sobered a bit and realized that she doesn't need to follow her old path. She actually smiled when I told her no, to be honest. And that made me smile. She knows I won't take anyone without their real consent, and being emotionally weakened isn't one of them.
-shrug- Even though she wants to be happy with James, I want to try to respect that decision she made. What actually made my heart swell is that she wanted me to be with her too. I was a bit afraid to ask what she meant by that, but she did explain herself. She said and I quote, "I really do want you to be with me, in a best friend sense, but I actually. . . want to try us again, you know? -sighs- I don't want to sound greedy, but. . . I actually miss you." I didn't know what to say and or do. I didn't know until I hugged her, and she kissed me.
Though the worst has past for now, I'm happy to say that a much brighter future is ahead.
After the whole business with the two you-know-who's, Selene wasn't herself. I didn't trust her to be at the Palace, so I took her back to Asher and I's apartment, to keep watch of her. She was trembling a lot and I almost was frightened that she was mostly reduced to that state. At first, I had no idea on what the hell I was doing, but more importantly. . . I realized that Selene needed those she cared about to be with her, and to not give up on her.
So after everyone left the room, she and I had a talk. She told me everything that she's been wanting to admit to me and or say to me. . . atleast when she felt ready. Some of it broke my own heart, but even still, I wanted to know what was going on in her mind. And she wanted to know the same. And I indulged her in everything that I've been neglecting to tell her, due to fear and or shame. . . And she welcomed it with open arms. Which surprised me. Even though she said I could talk to her about anything, I just felt as though a huge weight has been completely lifted off my being.
There were even moments when Selene and I would kiss and or indulge ourselves in one another, not for sex, but for comfort. I found it really cute when afterwords, she'd blush and apologize when she really didn't have to. I told her that I'd given myself up for her. She was even so distraught, she wanted sex for comfort. . . And when I told her no, she sobered a bit and realized that she doesn't need to follow her old path. She actually smiled when I told her no, to be honest. And that made me smile. She knows I won't take anyone without their real consent, and being emotionally weakened isn't one of them.
-shrug- Even though she wants to be happy with James, I want to try to respect that decision she made. What actually made my heart swell is that she wanted me to be with her too. I was a bit afraid to ask what she meant by that, but she did explain herself. She said and I quote, "I really do want you to be with me, in a best friend sense, but I actually. . . want to try us again, you know? -sighs- I don't want to sound greedy, but. . . I actually miss you." I didn't know what to say and or do. I didn't know until I hugged her, and she kissed me.
Though the worst has past for now, I'm happy to say that a much brighter future is ahead.