in which andi returns after a couple month break. . .
so here i am back at ferris and back into the swing of things. . . sort of. i've gotten out of the habit of updating this because i'm pretty sure that even with the link i put in my im profile, there are only like 3 people who ever read this. and i guess you could say that's good cuz it would mean that it would be a good venue for me to vent. . . but at the same time, i usually prefer to vent in person. things have crappy this past week, and yet for the first time in a long time i'm happy. over the past couple of weeks i've gotten my sister back and am finally with an extremely decent guy; one who doesn't want to change me or tell me that he "wants me, but a [different version]" of me. (previous phrase edited for content) we can actually talk about things--other than sex--and agree on a lot. we also have a lot in common and just enough different to make things interesting, rather than difficult. he isn't trying to rescue me either. he realizes that i'm strong and makes it clear that he's there if i need him, but he's not gonna push himself on me. and what's most important is that he's never pushed me to talk about certain things so hard that i end up crying out of frustration. it makes me wonder why it took so long. . . but then, if it hadn't taken so long, i wouldn't be the exact person i am now, and he wouldn't be the exact person he is now, and maybe we wouldn't fit as well as we do. but yeah, now i feel like i'm being too mushy so i'm gonna leave it that.