...i am actually bothered...
yo... i am lazing around again when i should be posting my fic update already. *gets bricked* O_o
i will be honest here, for a week now, i've been crazily flailing over other guys... i'm currently doing dorama marathons this whole week.
and i think i'm getting frustrated of my ichiban already... not that i am to abandon him now... i know, it's definitely stupid... but this feeling, it's like when a couple decides to "cool-off" for the meantime... i mean when i looked at him recently, what i thought of was "ok, what now? nothing new??"
yeah...maybe, i am getting impatient that he's inactive right now.. since he has no solo activities whatsoever.. so here i am, flailing over others... they're even up for a new album, yet unlike before, i am not excited...*pouts* i feel crap.. but i am definitely not switching fandoms... zettai.... zettai!!!
a very good friend of mine told me that what i'm experiencing is just normal so i shouldn't worry too much... she said that it's normal to have a breather... i just got so bothered since my mind has been koki x nakamaru - centric for the longest time... until this week... i totally ignored my ichiban... i still am... and idk when i'll be back to normal.. i wish it would be soon... i don't want this feeling anyway... like i'm being a half-hearted fan.. OMG.. i am so stupid for such a trivial matter...
and just now... another one of the things that bother me hightened again... i have been ignoring it before but it's creeping my mind again... i shall make another post for this matter now... i think this post alone is too dragging already... (at least for me).
i will be honest here, for a week now, i've been crazily flailing over other guys... i'm currently doing dorama marathons this whole week.
and i think i'm getting frustrated of my ichiban already... not that i am to abandon him now... i know, it's definitely stupid... but this feeling, it's like when a couple decides to "cool-off" for the meantime... i mean when i looked at him recently, what i thought of was "ok, what now? nothing new??"
yeah...maybe, i am getting impatient that he's inactive right now.. since he has no solo activities whatsoever.. so here i am, flailing over others... they're even up for a new album, yet unlike before, i am not excited...*pouts* i feel crap.. but i am definitely not switching fandoms... zettai.... zettai!!!
a very good friend of mine told me that what i'm experiencing is just normal so i shouldn't worry too much... she said that it's normal to have a breather... i just got so bothered since my mind has been koki x nakamaru - centric for the longest time... until this week... i totally ignored my ichiban... i still am... and idk when i'll be back to normal.. i wish it would be soon... i don't want this feeling anyway... like i'm being a half-hearted fan.. OMG.. i am so stupid for such a trivial matter...
and just now... another one of the things that bother me hightened again... i have been ignoring it before but it's creeping my mind again... i shall make another post for this matter now... i think this post alone is too dragging already... (at least for me).