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Today is my first day back to a school in too long. I sort of can't wait until saturday because that is my math class, and I really really miss math. I know I am weird for saying it. But you know, its my favorite subject. Kim thinks I am nuts because I said that I missed doing homework or something, not that I did it all too often at home, while I was in school before. But that is okay. It was just me getting bored, and school gives me something to do. I am going nuts. I mean I work, NOT enough hours, and I have Karate... Which by the way, I think is a really good thing for me to be learning, because it helps me with focus and concentration. And then church, well I don't know how I feel about church lately. I mean I go still and everything. I guess its not church but bible studies that I don't know how I feel about. Although at thursdays college study, we had so so so much fun... We are learning the whole old testament with these hand motion things.. Its silly but so much fun watching 50 people looking ridiculous all at once ;p Anyway...
I really think that maybe I need to get away from everything if I am going to become stable completely. I mean physically and emotionally and any other kind of stable I can become. More on that later though, because I am not ready to vocalize my idea to the public yet. I think that school will help give me some most structure in my life. Well I have to get ready to go soon.
Actually I have one more thing to say. I miss Jackie, and her death really hurt me. I am not okay because of it, and I just wanted to get it out of my system. Not that the tears don't already help with that. But I guess I just needed to tell someone how I felt about it.
Love for all who read this.
I really think that maybe I need to get away from everything if I am going to become stable completely. I mean physically and emotionally and any other kind of stable I can become. More on that later though, because I am not ready to vocalize my idea to the public yet. I think that school will help give me some most structure in my life. Well I have to get ready to go soon.
Actually I have one more thing to say. I miss Jackie, and her death really hurt me. I am not okay because of it, and I just wanted to get it out of my system. Not that the tears don't already help with that. But I guess I just needed to tell someone how I felt about it.
Love for all who read this.