ranting/pouring my heart out?
i always have great days and nights to come home to have it all go down hill lately. yeah ive had some really great times this week with people i love but when i get home and this all happens again.
i can't let the things he says hurt me i know i can't but they still do even though everyone tells me its not true and i can't listen to him. i want to hate him so bad.
and then last night screwed my head up so bad.
i know what i want again because its all i wanted last summer and i never really got it. i was always 2nd to him and even though we hung out so much and everything that happened i never got him. and last night was good seeing him but everything just came back. and i don't think he gets when he makes jokes about stuff that happens that its actually what i'm feeling and how much seeing him screwed with my head. its just not fair cause i never get the nice guy & thats all i want.
i can't let the things he says hurt me i know i can't but they still do even though everyone tells me its not true and i can't listen to him. i want to hate him so bad.
and then last night screwed my head up so bad.
i know what i want again because its all i wanted last summer and i never really got it. i was always 2nd to him and even though we hung out so much and everything that happened i never got him. and last night was good seeing him but everything just came back. and i don't think he gets when he makes jokes about stuff that happens that its actually what i'm feeling and how much seeing him screwed with my head. its just not fair cause i never get the nice guy & thats all i want.