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I feel so lost.
I may not have a job sooner than I think because I can't drive to Franklin Park for 1 four hour shift a week.Which means I need to cancel my cell phone...can't pay off any of my bills...and cannot afford rent which could mean I'm going to have to live out of my car.
Speaking of car.I'm grateful to have one...but once again it is completely on the fritz and is bipolar.I need to have it looked at but who can afford that?I wish I could get a new car but I'd have to rob a bank or prostitute myself out just to make a decent down payment.I hate how everything in this country is centered around money.
Matt can only says it's life.I feel so unsupported.
I've been job hunting for months.No one wants me for an "adult" job because I have no degree and no experience in what they want and what I do have experience in I don't have at least a year in of that.How's a person supposed to get their start in life if no opportunities are available and no one will give you a chance?So now I'm just desperate.So because I only have 1 shift this entire week I can't afford to go anywhere so I will be job hunting at crappy jobs I do not want.If I can get more hours at those jobs though I at least have to be grateful.
It feels weird that I'm freaking out because of things changing...but I need more of a change to put things back on track.Doesn't really make sense.Gragh.
Just going to keep trying and hope for the best.
I may not have a job sooner than I think because I can't drive to Franklin Park for 1 four hour shift a week.Which means I need to cancel my cell phone...can't pay off any of my bills...and cannot afford rent which could mean I'm going to have to live out of my car.
Speaking of car.I'm grateful to have one...but once again it is completely on the fritz and is bipolar.I need to have it looked at but who can afford that?I wish I could get a new car but I'd have to rob a bank or prostitute myself out just to make a decent down payment.I hate how everything in this country is centered around money.
Matt can only says it's life.I feel so unsupported.
I've been job hunting for months.No one wants me for an "adult" job because I have no degree and no experience in what they want and what I do have experience in I don't have at least a year in of that.How's a person supposed to get their start in life if no opportunities are available and no one will give you a chance?So now I'm just desperate.So because I only have 1 shift this entire week I can't afford to go anywhere so I will be job hunting at crappy jobs I do not want.If I can get more hours at those jobs though I at least have to be grateful.
It feels weird that I'm freaking out because of things changing...but I need more of a change to put things back on track.Doesn't really make sense.Gragh.
Just going to keep trying and hope for the best.