knees
you've been gone 2 hours and i already more than miss you. i enjoy our lazy afternoons together. sure, i like the time i have to myself too, but no where near as much as the other/
everyones always said growing up sucks, but you always want to grow up, until you do, and then you realize it does kind of suck, so you tell the younger people you know, not to grow up too fast because it sucks, but they dont listen, cause they just want to drive, or finish high school, or drink. all over rated i say..except for driving. but anyways
i get down alot, down on myself alot. i forget that i have you here, to talk to, to listen, to listen to, to support eachother and to love. im not used to that, but i love when i remember that.
everyone says youre never happy. you want a house, you get a house. then yoou want a bigger house, or a newer car, or ect...ect..
but i want to be happy. i want all the wanting to end one day. perhaps its human nature to always want more, or maybe (i believe) its just become part of this society to want more, and people have the ability to be satisfied, although it may not be easy anymore. thats what i think.
i dont mind work. i just mind working at a place i dont enjoy, with people and for people and waiting on people that dont appreciate me. i like to be appreciated.
i appreciate you. the things you do and say and the delicious dinners you cook.
i feel like i mentally become stable and then i forget and mentally fuck myself and constantly set myself back for some reason. idk
while some times i think about alot of roads i had imagined myself traveling down during this life, and realize i may no longer be able to, the one im going down now, it aint so bad. i like my passenger. likes her lots. i hurt myself when i realize im not being what i can, or how i want to be acting towards her. i hope she knows how special i think she is. and how much i dont like her, and my time with her. my coldest day, always warmed.
everyones always said growing up sucks, but you always want to grow up, until you do, and then you realize it does kind of suck, so you tell the younger people you know, not to grow up too fast because it sucks, but they dont listen, cause they just want to drive, or finish high school, or drink. all over rated i say..except for driving. but anyways
i get down alot, down on myself alot. i forget that i have you here, to talk to, to listen, to listen to, to support eachother and to love. im not used to that, but i love when i remember that.
everyone says youre never happy. you want a house, you get a house. then yoou want a bigger house, or a newer car, or ect...ect..
but i want to be happy. i want all the wanting to end one day. perhaps its human nature to always want more, or maybe (i believe) its just become part of this society to want more, and people have the ability to be satisfied, although it may not be easy anymore. thats what i think.
i dont mind work. i just mind working at a place i dont enjoy, with people and for people and waiting on people that dont appreciate me. i like to be appreciated.
i appreciate you. the things you do and say and the delicious dinners you cook.
i feel like i mentally become stable and then i forget and mentally fuck myself and constantly set myself back for some reason. idk
while some times i think about alot of roads i had imagined myself traveling down during this life, and realize i may no longer be able to, the one im going down now, it aint so bad. i like my passenger. likes her lots. i hurt myself when i realize im not being what i can, or how i want to be acting towards her. i hope she knows how special i think she is. and how much i dont like her, and my time with her. my coldest day, always warmed.