"Even if your hands are shaking, And your faith is broken, Even as the eyes are closing..."
oh boy oh boy oh boy
so i dont know what it is about this thing that has completely and totally lost its appeal....perhaps i am just too mellow and together....HA
actually that's not too far off.....things are going well, can always be better or worse, but are well at the current state of time.
i'm more than excited to get this whole school thing on the road. i cant wait to move to NC and be a full time student FINALLY haha hopefully this 2 year break in education has given me the motivation to work as hard as i can at getting my education degree. im glad i've taken this time off to get things together and figure out wha i want. more than anything else am i glad that i spent my time away last year. Totally clutch in my decision to go into teaching.
it's almost been an entire year since my african adventure...i cant even believe it! I miss all my friends from ccs quite a bit and i want to see them this summer....hopefully i'll at the very least be in Minnesota.....i thought i might be able to visit Mason at his DC internship but....he's kind of fallen off the face of the earth so i dont think thats going to happen...oh well....(that was me pretending to down play how bummed i am i havent talked to him in many many weeks)
i miss my friends bunches and bunches but they will all be back from school soon....nearly summer time which makes me kind of itch for the usual summer activities....pool all day, party, weekend trips to NJ, concerts and the BEACH.....
trying to convince dad to buy the house down the street is totally exhausting hahaha all we really need is the money for a down payment and we'd be set, it would actually be a little cheaper to live there than hear and not to mention SO MUCH NICER.....but the down payment is pretty steap and chel and i will be in school next year so...who knows....i'll have to get him at the hottest day of the summer and covince him into making an offer or something
pretty thrilled about the ensuing week off....completely enammored actually (sp?) because i honestly think that i am the most over-worked and under-payed employee at the pool....which is totally fine because it works in my favor when it comes to scheduling BUT after awhile i get burnt out and totally over my co-workers and the members.
the weather is getting more excellent with each passing week, which of course is making it so much easier to want to go outside everyday haha
i do have to say that the past 4 years have flown by faster than i thought they would....but at the same time have definately left a small hole somewhere in side.....i cant believe that he's nearly out and im excited for him to get his life back and start moving towards completion of that list i told him to make.....i wish more than anything else that i would get to be a part of it....but you get what you deserve i suppose and i deserve to feel this way because i was selfish and stupid...i'm working on it...boo to mistakes i make...double boo
some final thoughts
1) it bothers me that my bank sends me info about getting a credit card....and then they deny me when i apply...
2) i've upgraded from sleeping with just my fan on to fan on AND window open
3) drunken phone calls are my worst enemy.....friends dont let friends drunk dial
4)i was told the other day that (strictly physically speaking) if i were blonde and dressed more scantilly that i would look like a stripper...
5) i still miss him
so i dont know what it is about this thing that has completely and totally lost its appeal....perhaps i am just too mellow and together....HA
actually that's not too far off.....things are going well, can always be better or worse, but are well at the current state of time.
i'm more than excited to get this whole school thing on the road. i cant wait to move to NC and be a full time student FINALLY haha hopefully this 2 year break in education has given me the motivation to work as hard as i can at getting my education degree. im glad i've taken this time off to get things together and figure out wha i want. more than anything else am i glad that i spent my time away last year. Totally clutch in my decision to go into teaching.
it's almost been an entire year since my african adventure...i cant even believe it! I miss all my friends from ccs quite a bit and i want to see them this summer....hopefully i'll at the very least be in Minnesota.....i thought i might be able to visit Mason at his DC internship but....he's kind of fallen off the face of the earth so i dont think thats going to happen...oh well....(that was me pretending to down play how bummed i am i havent talked to him in many many weeks)
i miss my friends bunches and bunches but they will all be back from school soon....nearly summer time which makes me kind of itch for the usual summer activities....pool all day, party, weekend trips to NJ, concerts and the BEACH.....
trying to convince dad to buy the house down the street is totally exhausting hahaha all we really need is the money for a down payment and we'd be set, it would actually be a little cheaper to live there than hear and not to mention SO MUCH NICER.....but the down payment is pretty steap and chel and i will be in school next year so...who knows....i'll have to get him at the hottest day of the summer and covince him into making an offer or something
pretty thrilled about the ensuing week off....completely enammored actually (sp?) because i honestly think that i am the most over-worked and under-payed employee at the pool....which is totally fine because it works in my favor when it comes to scheduling BUT after awhile i get burnt out and totally over my co-workers and the members.
the weather is getting more excellent with each passing week, which of course is making it so much easier to want to go outside everyday haha
i do have to say that the past 4 years have flown by faster than i thought they would....but at the same time have definately left a small hole somewhere in side.....i cant believe that he's nearly out and im excited for him to get his life back and start moving towards completion of that list i told him to make.....i wish more than anything else that i would get to be a part of it....but you get what you deserve i suppose and i deserve to feel this way because i was selfish and stupid...i'm working on it...boo to mistakes i make...double boo
some final thoughts
1) it bothers me that my bank sends me info about getting a credit card....and then they deny me when i apply...
2) i've upgraded from sleeping with just my fan on to fan on AND window open
3) drunken phone calls are my worst enemy.....friends dont let friends drunk dial
4)i was told the other day that (strictly physically speaking) if i were blonde and dressed more scantilly that i would look like a stripper...
5) i still miss him