Ugh i just can take it anymore

[anyonesuser]

idk whats going on with me lately. i feel as though everyone elses lives are so much better than mine are. im so fucking sick of it. people around me a pairing off. i mean it doesnt bother me but it feels like no one wants me around anymore. people hardly talk to me. at least the ones i want to talk to. but of course the ones that i dont want to are up my ass in conversations that i dont want to take part in. and i dont wanna blow em off and seem like a bitch about everything. i just want someone that will be there for me and just chill n talk about SHIT. but of course its something i want and i can never get. its like a long distant dream of mine that will never come true. and to top the cake of the most depressing day, my dads n asshole. u said shit n did something and this little girl saw like EVERYTHING right? so im in deep shit right now. And so its all thanks to jayme, juli, and of course ian. I mean i hardly ever cry in front of my friends. only like once of twice. i was bawling. ian was so surprised. hes never seen me like that before. face was all red tears down the face. the works. I just wish i had someone to actually talk to than to write all this shit down. But of course thats long distance and ive never experianced anything like that before and the way my lucks been so far, its probably something that will never take place. So if you would like to comment go for it...i need some cheering up.

love you....but you dont see it

Lauren :*-(