EVERYTHING IS WAY TOO LOUD!
Yesterday I referenced volume. This is that entry.
When I started working a job on the phones so many years ago the volume I set my headset to used to be around seven out of a scale ranging from one to ten with ten the loudest.
At some point I remember turning it down to three and that feels like quite a distant memory.
Now I wish I could turn it down lower than one. I very rarely turn it higher than one. Today alone I must've taken the speaker off my ear and slid it forward to rest on my cheek in front of my ear half a dozen times. It feels like some people who speak loudly (or just have loud voices) sometimes sound like they are shouting in my ear. It...sets me on edge when this happens.
The noise people around me make at work doesn't help either. Like the woman who sits behind me and constantly clears her throat all day long. Or between doing that she'll mute her microphone and says unprofessional things about the caller...seemingly to herself but loud enough as if she wants someone sitting nearby to comment. I haven't really had a co-worker I've felt so much dislike for. Or other people who suddenly become very loud, a gentleman who sits nearby is naturally very loud. All of the time. Or a woman's voice I remember one day that carried from nearly a hundred feet (or more) across the call center (which is much larger than a hundred feet, for reference) suddenly I heard every word she said very clearly as she went through security questions; it wasn't the first time I'd heard her voice either.
All I hear is noise everywhere.
Crying babies, children competing for the caller's attention, car windshield wipers, car turn signals, airplanes, sirens, air moving around a vehicle on the highway traveling at highway speeds, traffic as you stand outside, voices of people near you, that person who keeps whispering answers to you, that person backseat-driving your phone call please tell them to stop playing telephone while you are on the telephone, the sound of you typing, your heavy breathing, you chewing (please stop!), you going to the bathroom, oh and also flushing the toilet, plus the echo only bathrooms have, you really didn't wash your hands?
Hospital overhead announcements in the background, the sound of phones nearby ringing at a hospital, people coming up to ask the person calling me questions or to check-in, alarms/alerts/notifications typically piercing and utterly annoying in a hospital environment. I've learned I never want to work in a hospital because of all of the piercing noises. Many of the hospitals I've been called from have very unpleasant alarms that are meant to get your attention and to keep you from ignoring them.
Aside from the phone noises don't...feel louder. My body seems to be...more focused on them instead of noises simply sounding louder. They are all more...it's like they get through any audio defenses I might have that previously warded off such intrusions.
Lately my neighbour upstairs has been...stressing me out with the noise he makes. At night this week it seems to be around ten o'clock at night he seems to come home and he starts to move about in his apartment causing the floor to creak any and every time he moves. He steps heavily further exacerbating the matter. Some nights this goes on for a short while others have been for most of the night, sometimes until six or seven o'clock in the morning. I get the feeling tonight is one of the latter. He has played music some of these nights loudly. I can hear it too well from where I sit on the sofa right now.
I don't know to approach him about it. I know the adult thing would be simple, "Hey, I have work in the morning and am trying to sleep. Could you please keep the noise to a minimum?"
I wonder if he is on a night schedule at the moment, if so, that makes me annoyed. My home is my sanctuary, what good is it if someone is effectively invading my personal space?
I'm becoming...increasingly unhappy about neighbours. I like my place but the neighbours are...starting to sour me on it. The noise is one of the big factors. I realize now the old woman who lived up there before was actually really quiet other than her sometimes yapping dog if it heard you on the stairs.
He seems to be taking the cue for "acceptable" (ha!) music volume from the guy across the hall from him...which is too loud. I know the girl across the hall from me has complained about the music being too loud, having resulted in cops showing up in the middle of the night (half past three o'clock) and making so much noise it woke me and kept me from getting back to sleep for a couple hours. Pretty frustrating and an example of what I meant about the neighbours souring me on my surroundings.
Finding an abode that's...far enough removed for noise to be a non-issue and would also be private without so far removed to have to worry about losing power for a week if a bad snowstorm hits would be...unlikely, especially if I don't want to buy.
I just want to be alone [right now] and constantly being barraged by so much noise...it feels so intrusive. I feel like I am denied the option of being alone. There is nowhere I can retreat to.
If I didn't have to worry about making money, perhaps in a different age, I would have packed up some things (e.g. food) and walked away...to start a journey.
I just really want to be asleep right now.
When I started working a job on the phones so many years ago the volume I set my headset to used to be around seven out of a scale ranging from one to ten with ten the loudest.
At some point I remember turning it down to three and that feels like quite a distant memory.
Now I wish I could turn it down lower than one. I very rarely turn it higher than one. Today alone I must've taken the speaker off my ear and slid it forward to rest on my cheek in front of my ear half a dozen times. It feels like some people who speak loudly (or just have loud voices) sometimes sound like they are shouting in my ear. It...sets me on edge when this happens.
The noise people around me make at work doesn't help either. Like the woman who sits behind me and constantly clears her throat all day long. Or between doing that she'll mute her microphone and says unprofessional things about the caller...seemingly to herself but loud enough as if she wants someone sitting nearby to comment. I haven't really had a co-worker I've felt so much dislike for. Or other people who suddenly become very loud, a gentleman who sits nearby is naturally very loud. All of the time. Or a woman's voice I remember one day that carried from nearly a hundred feet (or more) across the call center (which is much larger than a hundred feet, for reference) suddenly I heard every word she said very clearly as she went through security questions; it wasn't the first time I'd heard her voice either.
All I hear is noise everywhere.
Crying babies, children competing for the caller's attention, car windshield wipers, car turn signals, airplanes, sirens, air moving around a vehicle on the highway traveling at highway speeds, traffic as you stand outside, voices of people near you, that person who keeps whispering answers to you, that person backseat-driving your phone call please tell them to stop playing telephone while you are on the telephone, the sound of you typing, your heavy breathing, you chewing (please stop!), you going to the bathroom, oh and also flushing the toilet, plus the echo only bathrooms have, you really didn't wash your hands?
Hospital overhead announcements in the background, the sound of phones nearby ringing at a hospital, people coming up to ask the person calling me questions or to check-in, alarms/alerts/notifications typically piercing and utterly annoying in a hospital environment. I've learned I never want to work in a hospital because of all of the piercing noises. Many of the hospitals I've been called from have very unpleasant alarms that are meant to get your attention and to keep you from ignoring them.
Aside from the phone noises don't...feel louder. My body seems to be...more focused on them instead of noises simply sounding louder. They are all more...it's like they get through any audio defenses I might have that previously warded off such intrusions.
Lately my neighbour upstairs has been...stressing me out with the noise he makes. At night this week it seems to be around ten o'clock at night he seems to come home and he starts to move about in his apartment causing the floor to creak any and every time he moves. He steps heavily further exacerbating the matter. Some nights this goes on for a short while others have been for most of the night, sometimes until six or seven o'clock in the morning. I get the feeling tonight is one of the latter. He has played music some of these nights loudly. I can hear it too well from where I sit on the sofa right now.
I don't know to approach him about it. I know the adult thing would be simple, "Hey, I have work in the morning and am trying to sleep. Could you please keep the noise to a minimum?"
I wonder if he is on a night schedule at the moment, if so, that makes me annoyed. My home is my sanctuary, what good is it if someone is effectively invading my personal space?
I'm becoming...increasingly unhappy about neighbours. I like my place but the neighbours are...starting to sour me on it. The noise is one of the big factors. I realize now the old woman who lived up there before was actually really quiet other than her sometimes yapping dog if it heard you on the stairs.
He seems to be taking the cue for "acceptable" (ha!) music volume from the guy across the hall from him...which is too loud. I know the girl across the hall from me has complained about the music being too loud, having resulted in cops showing up in the middle of the night (half past three o'clock) and making so much noise it woke me and kept me from getting back to sleep for a couple hours. Pretty frustrating and an example of what I meant about the neighbours souring me on my surroundings.
Finding an abode that's...far enough removed for noise to be a non-issue and would also be private without so far removed to have to worry about losing power for a week if a bad snowstorm hits would be...unlikely, especially if I don't want to buy.
I just want to be alone [right now] and constantly being barraged by so much noise...it feels so intrusive. I feel like I am denied the option of being alone. There is nowhere I can retreat to.
If I didn't have to worry about making money, perhaps in a different age, I would have packed up some things (e.g. food) and walked away...to start a journey.
I just really want to be asleep right now.