What I Want.
As I was trying to remember the Spice Girls lyric while I sat there looking at the subject I couldn't remember the correct words for the life of me. I can hear the almost everything else about that part of the song except the right words.
Been looking at prospects (okay, honestly I spent more time answering questions today) but I continue to be frustrated by the results.
More than that finding any kind of hint that anyone that turns up is able and willing to engage in the kind of conversations that I wish to participate in.
I'd be excited to hang out with someone and discuss things that...most people just...ug, don't get.
I remember being told that I was someone who "gets it".
It's making the rest of the world feel hollow when you can't even find people that you can have really good engaging conversations with. I want to be able to discuss things like...things that impact us on a large scale.
Lately there's been a lot of news about people leaking information (Edward Snowden for example, prior Wikileaks releases, etc.) and this whole NSA spying business. Now that's pretty topical the way I see it. If you want to discuss the tip of the iceberg, fine, whatever.
What frustrates me is not being able to talk about the rest of the iceberg that is sitting there below the surface of the water. It's like because it is underwater and we are standing above it nobody wants to see it, recognize it is there or even talk about it. Why?
It bothers me that nobody wants to engage in the more serious conversations and I find that I am wary of those that willing do want to engage in such "discussions" as they are often very one-sided where the other party wishes to push their view on to other people. They don't want to engage in an exchange of views but rather you can see they have amassed their forces and prepared for war. (Remember that entry? If not search for the tag "troop movements".)
Early this week I asked two of my friends (one I've known much longer and through whom I ultimately met my other current friends) how they think. I did get answers but they were not at all like the answers I've received in the past.
I forget how the friend I've known longer put it (I really need nick/codenames for them - I'll have to work on that) but I remember him describing a situation where he was telling another person something who was trying to write it down but my friend was talking too fast for him because the other guy couldn't write it down as fast as my friend was processing the information in his head.
The other...had a more difficult time figuring out how to describe it but ultimately said he felt that he frequently thought in a very "linear" manner. He couldn't skip steps he had to focus and take everything in order.
Unlike our other friend who tends to be more ADD and...based on how he described it to me it sounded like an idea cloud and he would hop from idea to idea quickly in whatever order or manner he choose. He wouldn't do things in order or stay on any given idea for very long.
Other answers I've received:
Formulas
Song
Text
Pictures
Angles (a rock climber - when looking at something they have to climb)
When I tried to ask them how they would power a space ship...I never did get any answers and that question quickly fell by the conversational wayside. I even told them to throw all of the rules out the window.
I could see that they continued to be trapped by the rules. It was very evident in their eyes and their faces that yes, they were thinking of physics and all and using that to shape any answer that might be provided. I shared an example of something more fanciful that was the kind of imaginative answer I'd love but...still nothing.
And within a minute or two after that we ended up drifting away from that to more mundane topics.
Like bad drivers.
Or the last guy who tried to merge with me and...I don't know what he was thinking. I was at the end of the merging lanes (after a stop light) he was entirely behind me in a Honda Ridgeline (a Honda pick-up truck) towing a trailer with a four wheeler on it. Somehow he thought he had enough space (What? No. He really didn't. There was one lane in front of me. No more merging lanes left.) and the power to get in front of me. He didn't seem to get I was following my friend who was in front of me.
Instead of accepting his place he put the gas all the way to the floor and tried to pass me. I was next to the passenger's door of his truck when I had no space or other options left and I was pissed that he would be so reckless as to try passing me and endangering my life. I hit the horn so he knew where I was and that he was being an unreasonable and very unsafe driver. Thankfully I have better-than-stock brakes and I quickly hit the brakes hard to get the heck out of the way.
Those aren't the things I really want to talk about, unless it's to vent so I can de-stress and relax. I dislike being worked up over stupid stuff like that. I want more meaningful conversations.
Honestly, I don't know who I am going to have them with.
I know one person.
I want to know more.
Been looking at prospects (okay, honestly I spent more time answering questions today) but I continue to be frustrated by the results.
More than that finding any kind of hint that anyone that turns up is able and willing to engage in the kind of conversations that I wish to participate in.
I'd be excited to hang out with someone and discuss things that...most people just...ug, don't get.
I remember being told that I was someone who "gets it".
It's making the rest of the world feel hollow when you can't even find people that you can have really good engaging conversations with. I want to be able to discuss things like...things that impact us on a large scale.
Lately there's been a lot of news about people leaking information (Edward Snowden for example, prior Wikileaks releases, etc.) and this whole NSA spying business. Now that's pretty topical the way I see it. If you want to discuss the tip of the iceberg, fine, whatever.
What frustrates me is not being able to talk about the rest of the iceberg that is sitting there below the surface of the water. It's like because it is underwater and we are standing above it nobody wants to see it, recognize it is there or even talk about it. Why?
It bothers me that nobody wants to engage in the more serious conversations and I find that I am wary of those that willing do want to engage in such "discussions" as they are often very one-sided where the other party wishes to push their view on to other people. They don't want to engage in an exchange of views but rather you can see they have amassed their forces and prepared for war. (Remember that entry? If not search for the tag "troop movements".)
Early this week I asked two of my friends (one I've known much longer and through whom I ultimately met my other current friends) how they think. I did get answers but they were not at all like the answers I've received in the past.
I forget how the friend I've known longer put it (I really need nick/codenames for them - I'll have to work on that) but I remember him describing a situation where he was telling another person something who was trying to write it down but my friend was talking too fast for him because the other guy couldn't write it down as fast as my friend was processing the information in his head.
The other...had a more difficult time figuring out how to describe it but ultimately said he felt that he frequently thought in a very "linear" manner. He couldn't skip steps he had to focus and take everything in order.
Unlike our other friend who tends to be more ADD and...based on how he described it to me it sounded like an idea cloud and he would hop from idea to idea quickly in whatever order or manner he choose. He wouldn't do things in order or stay on any given idea for very long.
Other answers I've received:
Formulas
Song
Text
Pictures
Angles (a rock climber - when looking at something they have to climb)
When I tried to ask them how they would power a space ship...I never did get any answers and that question quickly fell by the conversational wayside. I even told them to throw all of the rules out the window.
I could see that they continued to be trapped by the rules. It was very evident in their eyes and their faces that yes, they were thinking of physics and all and using that to shape any answer that might be provided. I shared an example of something more fanciful that was the kind of imaginative answer I'd love but...still nothing.
And within a minute or two after that we ended up drifting away from that to more mundane topics.
Like bad drivers.
Or the last guy who tried to merge with me and...I don't know what he was thinking. I was at the end of the merging lanes (after a stop light) he was entirely behind me in a Honda Ridgeline (a Honda pick-up truck) towing a trailer with a four wheeler on it. Somehow he thought he had enough space (What? No. He really didn't. There was one lane in front of me. No more merging lanes left.) and the power to get in front of me. He didn't seem to get I was following my friend who was in front of me.
Instead of accepting his place he put the gas all the way to the floor and tried to pass me. I was next to the passenger's door of his truck when I had no space or other options left and I was pissed that he would be so reckless as to try passing me and endangering my life. I hit the horn so he knew where I was and that he was being an unreasonable and very unsafe driver. Thankfully I have better-than-stock brakes and I quickly hit the brakes hard to get the heck out of the way.
Those aren't the things I really want to talk about, unless it's to vent so I can de-stress and relax. I dislike being worked up over stupid stuff like that. I want more meaningful conversations.
Honestly, I don't know who I am going to have them with.
I know one person.
I want to know more.