I didn't want this to happen, I really didn't...
This has been eating at me for weeks now ever since it happened I suppose. But here it is.
You and I aren't friends anymore. This was my choice, but it was because of the things you did or should I say didn't do. For so long, years, we were best friends and now we aren't. You can blame me all you want, I don't really care if you do or not. But I know in my heart that I tried to make things work out between us, I really did because I cared about you. Even when things were rocky between us I still made an effort to be nice and amicable towards you. Never once during that time did I refuse to be around you because I wanted things back to how they were. Contrary to what you might believe I did not want our friendship to end. But suddenly it seemed as though you were too busy for me, for all of us but I won't go into that because everyone else has their own opinions about that. You were too busy with classes, moving, trying to find a job, etc...but hey aren't we all in the same situations sans moving? I'm in college too and was trying to get a job (and found one) yet I still somehow managed to keep my friendships alive because it was important for me to do so. To me it seems as though to you I wasn't worth keeping. But that's just me, I could be wrong. Even with everything going on I did try to communicate with you, but after getting little to no response back, I did give up on that. I admit it., I gave up on you Jeff. And stupidly a part of me thought that if I quit trying to reach out to you, you would reach out to me but it never happened and that hurt. But the thing that hurt the most is knowing that you said I didn't try to make it work because I did.
I really didn't want it to end, but it just wasn't worth the effort anymore to be your friend and for that I'm am truly sorry. Things could have been different, but they aren't. Despite what you might think I don't hate you and I never really have; we just grew apart, I suppose the distance was too far and maybe I didn't try hard enough. You can blame me if you want to, I don't mind taking the fall for it. Part of me wants to believe that you'll change and see what you're doing because after being close friends for so long and then to have it end, it hurts. It really does. Or at least for me it does. You may think that I don't care about you but I do.
Maybe you'll read this, maybe you won't but it's open for you to. Now you know...