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For once, just once in my life, I wish I could have a mother that didn't think I was so worthless. A mother that didn't make it like I am the devils daughter. One that not accuse me of things I have not done. One that would have hugged me when I was upset, or sad, or happy. A mother that didn't find not in watching cry, or think it was okay to blame me after she best the crap out of me. Just a mom.
A real mom. I wish I could have had someone who was supportive, and motivated me, and made me feel like I could do anything, because I would have. Someone who didn't accuse me of all kinds of wrong doing, tell me to explain and then call me a liar when I do.
Just, for once, why can't anyone believe me?
And yes, I started shouting back. It's not like anyone is listening anyhow.