I'm not looking forward to this week...
I've been made to feel so bad and so stupid that I just don't want to go back to my externship site. I ask about learning something and the response I get is "You're here for 11 weeks just concentrate on (insert training I've already had)." And because of that the back office manager told my school that they don't think they are a good "fit" for that site. That I am not rooming patients on my own, that I'm not "comfortable" rooming patients on my own, and I am having "issues" with vitals. Not true at all. I even got a phone call and then reamed by my school because of the email that was sent. It seems like they don't want me there. If that's the case, why don't they just say so? I'm so upset by this that every night I'm having constant nightmares and night terrors about working there. All because of the people I'm "training" with. I can't tell the manager about it because I'm not an employee, why should they listen to me? And I'm being told to go faster and faster. How can I when I'm doing the best I can? And this last week I was told in a round about way to run... in a doctor's office? But then when I'm not working with that person she's slower then I could ever imagine being.
I am NOT looking forward to this next week. My 5th week, I should be excited, and I'm not. I'd dreading it and having constant nightmares...
*sigh*
As if things are aren't hard enough