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Wow, it's been one hell of a long time since I last updated and alot has happened.
First of all, both Lewiston A New Home, and Proof are finished so I officially only have two shows going on. School is alright I should be doing a lot better but I have lost all motivation. Family, fine.
This weekend I went to see Brokeback Mountain. Actually I saw it twice. It made me realize what I want in life and what I would be willing to go through to get those things that I want. I realized that as a gay male, I am part of the gay minority that one day hopes to find the perfect someone that I can spend the rest of my life with. Everyone who I talk to guarantees me that one day I am going to find that special someone, but i'm not going to find that person now in highschool.
I know that i'mn only 16 sixteen and shouldnt be too worried about finding the perfect someone to spend the rest of my life with, but I am. Being in a relationship has always been a very uplifting event in my life. While going through the divorce, school, any other shit that may enetr mny life, I always had someone who I could rely on. Someone more than a friend. It's these people who truly made me feel good about myself. It's those people who made me want to get up the following day to see what was in store for me.
Maybe it's time that I finally give in to what my mind is telling me and to take a break from being in a relationhsip. I mean I am kind of running out of options anyway. lol. But maybe it's time that i just settle down and spend time with myself. Finding out who I am and what I am going to be.
Who knows, maybe someone will find me instead of me having to find them.
I have three quotes that really sum up everything so I thought I would share them:
1) "It's not true that life is one damn thing after another. It's one damn thing over and over."
2) "If you can't fix it then you got to stand it."
3) "I wish I knew how to quite you."
First of all, both Lewiston A New Home, and Proof are finished so I officially only have two shows going on. School is alright I should be doing a lot better but I have lost all motivation. Family, fine.
This weekend I went to see Brokeback Mountain. Actually I saw it twice. It made me realize what I want in life and what I would be willing to go through to get those things that I want. I realized that as a gay male, I am part of the gay minority that one day hopes to find the perfect someone that I can spend the rest of my life with. Everyone who I talk to guarantees me that one day I am going to find that special someone, but i'm not going to find that person now in highschool.
I know that i'mn only 16 sixteen and shouldnt be too worried about finding the perfect someone to spend the rest of my life with, but I am. Being in a relationship has always been a very uplifting event in my life. While going through the divorce, school, any other shit that may enetr mny life, I always had someone who I could rely on. Someone more than a friend. It's these people who truly made me feel good about myself. It's those people who made me want to get up the following day to see what was in store for me.
Maybe it's time that I finally give in to what my mind is telling me and to take a break from being in a relationhsip. I mean I am kind of running out of options anyway. lol. But maybe it's time that i just settle down and spend time with myself. Finding out who I am and what I am going to be.
Who knows, maybe someone will find me instead of me having to find them.
I have three quotes that really sum up everything so I thought I would share them:
1) "It's not true that life is one damn thing after another. It's one damn thing over and over."
2) "If you can't fix it then you got to stand it."
3) "I wish I knew how to quite you."