Thirty minutes to waste....

[anxietyattack21]

Well, class got out early, and I have a few minutes to talk, so I guess I will. I've been MOSTLY unbulimic today...I had a big, giant, wonderful salad at lunch........chickpeas, ranch dressing, red peppers, egg, and those yummy green peas, whatever they are. A few pretzels. Then...well, I came upon my roomie's stash of easter candy and quickly devoured a milky way bunny (small) and two mini cadberry eggs. I had the world's smallest purge and am still starving, so I'm going to allow myself another, less caloric salad at lunch. I was just talking to my friend, Catherine, who is dating a complete asshole. He's not abusive like my ex, but he's the drink all the time, lives with mom and dad @ 28, goes out with his ex girlfriend who is "just a friend type." I was able to give her some advice, but understand that she's only gonna leave him when she's ready. God, sometimes I STILL miss asshole ex, but I know God has something better for me. I'm not sure if it's Matt, cause I'm really not happy with him right now, but I'm waiting to see if anything does grow there. He's just so wonderful that I don't want to let him go yet. I'm going to have to if SOMETHING doesn't happen in the feelings department soon. No matter what, I believe God has a good life for me...even if it doesn't include marriage and babies and all that stuff. I just wanna be happier and better. My moods feel a lot more normal when I'm not going on insane bulimic rampages...

Wow, still 25 minutes left. I think I'll check myspace and play webkinz :P