road blocks
The doctor delivered results from the biopsy today. Its small cell lung cancer with limited growth, luckily there are no signs of cancer in her bones, or brain according to the other tests taken. She started her chemo only a few short hours after diagnosis, I am with her now at her bedside, this treatment will last all night. You know its crazy stuff when the nurse is scared of the chemo bag, thats some toxic shit going into my mother right now. Tomorrow will be prep for radiation therapy.
My step father is still a pest. Im trying to figure out what to do with him, he belongs in a mental ward. He freaked out this morning saying really grotesque things and smashing his head into the wall. I had to call my sister to get her to drive over there to take care of him, and then she was pissed off at me...like its my fault. I cant even believe how terribly abusive and manipulative he still is. He tried to tell me and then my mother while she was in the hospital bed that she put this on her self and that its her fault she has cancer and that its her "karma" for laughing at him once. It took all my strength not to punch his lights out right there. There is just an endless amount of shit from this man.
So, Im on my own here, Im trying to figure out what to do when they release mom after her treatment, she cant go back to that house....not with him there. The rest of the family is too young and too mentally fucked up to be responsible anyway. Im praying to god that moms sister comes through and can possibly help out. I have no idea what to do. How do people handle this kind of stuff anyway. I cant send mom home to a house full of lunatics that cant take care of themselves, let alone her....shit, fuck, god damn. I think most people normally come together during these times.....not my family. The husband and 3 children are totally useless and are causing drama every second they can.
Gahhh
I don't know what the fuck to do.
My step father is still a pest. Im trying to figure out what to do with him, he belongs in a mental ward. He freaked out this morning saying really grotesque things and smashing his head into the wall. I had to call my sister to get her to drive over there to take care of him, and then she was pissed off at me...like its my fault. I cant even believe how terribly abusive and manipulative he still is. He tried to tell me and then my mother while she was in the hospital bed that she put this on her self and that its her fault she has cancer and that its her "karma" for laughing at him once. It took all my strength not to punch his lights out right there. There is just an endless amount of shit from this man.
So, Im on my own here, Im trying to figure out what to do when they release mom after her treatment, she cant go back to that house....not with him there. The rest of the family is too young and too mentally fucked up to be responsible anyway. Im praying to god that moms sister comes through and can possibly help out. I have no idea what to do. How do people handle this kind of stuff anyway. I cant send mom home to a house full of lunatics that cant take care of themselves, let alone her....shit, fuck, god damn. I think most people normally come together during these times.....not my family. The husband and 3 children are totally useless and are causing drama every second they can.
Gahhh
I don't know what the fuck to do.