another one bites the dust.

[anwrootbeer]

things have turned the worse.
and no one would ever believe the story.

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i miss my old self.
fat or thin.
i miss how happy and spunky i was.
i feel so insecure and boring all the time.
i know i have a lot to offer.
i just dont see it or think i have what it takes.
i weighed 225 pound.
i didnt have a care in the world what people thought of me.
its all i think about now.
am i sucking in? is my hair in place? did i eat too much today?
laugh
it really is pathetic

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but i think im finally giving up here.

im moving back to my worst nightmare.
for the worst reason and in the worst condition.
i deserve it and it is completely all my fault.

we can only go up from here.

but until then, just say no.