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Why.
Why do I do this to myself.
I really just don't get it. It's happening again...
I'd love to say I'm stressed out... but what a joke. My senior project is due on May 19, I'm not done with the book, I haven't even finished reading it. I have no desire to either.
So stress is not even the beginning. I make myself upset, and i don't get it. I remember the last time I felt this way, and it didn't go away very quickly.
I'm making myself sick... the headaches are back, and they come out of nowhere... just pounding... I don't sleep very well, eating is now like a chore... and to think this all happened in one day. My God.
Looking back at what I have written so far, I'd like you all to know that I'm not crazy, I just don't get it. I can't blame my feeling this way on anyone else. It's just me.
Maybe I am stupid. Seriously. I don't know what changed my mind around...
And now I think, maybe there is nothing to be upset about... I really don't know yet, so that gives me some hope, which is good, I guess?
No one reads this shit anyways, which is what some people may think. I thought so. MySpace is the new thing, but I don't want random strangers I don't know reading my thoughts and feelings. Though, they could read them on here, couldn't they?
Eh. Not so much.
I think I am one of those people, who reads or sees things and actions, and makes them out to be and mean what they want them to. It sucks being that way... but, then again, maybe I am just a little bit psychic, or something, and they do mean that, but it will take time for me to actually find out.
FUCK.
Needed to get that out.
Wow. Can we say bipolar. Geez. Although, if we look back about, eh, a year and a month, i was an angry, bitter teen, who hated the world.
Nothing wrong with that :D.
Well. I get to leave this class now.
Joy.
Stressed out with a massive headache. First one in 11 days, and sad, because I wasn't at a party last night.
?...do I...?
Why do I do this to myself.
I really just don't get it. It's happening again...
I'd love to say I'm stressed out... but what a joke. My senior project is due on May 19, I'm not done with the book, I haven't even finished reading it. I have no desire to either.
So stress is not even the beginning. I make myself upset, and i don't get it. I remember the last time I felt this way, and it didn't go away very quickly.
I'm making myself sick... the headaches are back, and they come out of nowhere... just pounding... I don't sleep very well, eating is now like a chore... and to think this all happened in one day. My God.
Looking back at what I have written so far, I'd like you all to know that I'm not crazy, I just don't get it. I can't blame my feeling this way on anyone else. It's just me.
Maybe I am stupid. Seriously. I don't know what changed my mind around...
And now I think, maybe there is nothing to be upset about... I really don't know yet, so that gives me some hope, which is good, I guess?
No one reads this shit anyways, which is what some people may think. I thought so. MySpace is the new thing, but I don't want random strangers I don't know reading my thoughts and feelings. Though, they could read them on here, couldn't they?
Eh. Not so much.
I think I am one of those people, who reads or sees things and actions, and makes them out to be and mean what they want them to. It sucks being that way... but, then again, maybe I am just a little bit psychic, or something, and they do mean that, but it will take time for me to actually find out.
FUCK.
Needed to get that out.
Wow. Can we say bipolar. Geez. Although, if we look back about, eh, a year and a month, i was an angry, bitter teen, who hated the world.
Nothing wrong with that :D.
Well. I get to leave this class now.
Joy.
Stressed out with a massive headache. First one in 11 days, and sad, because I wasn't at a party last night.
?...do I...?