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So a lot of stuff has happened and a lot of stuff has changed my life. Ever sence Josh and i pareted things got really bad for a while. all the lost and confusion came flying at my face and it was really hard to deal with loseing someone u loved so quick. But i have gotten past that and i guess just accepeted it. I dont really talk to his cousin Jacob anymore, we do every once in a great while but one of us r usualy busy or somethin...
So ya you no when everyone tells you getting ur linces changes everything. It really has, its just nice being able to be more dependent on myself and find my ways threw places. Even thou it does seem like ur friends do start to take advantage of you to drive them everywhere but thats when u no to drawl the line.
So i quite working at kroger... it was really needed and i couldent take the rumors and lies. i had enough stress in my life where i didnt need that place to help me along to add more. so i figured i'd do myself a favor and get out of there before it started getting to me. havent found or tried to get another one till school gets better and i get more stable.
hehe the normal life has been a roller coaster. i never no what im gona wake up to. lately its been getting better but some how when i get almost completly better something happens and i fall back again. but hopefully everything will even out. I've also learned a few new things about myself. i've noticed that i can talk to people and help them but then i become ingaged into there life and want to fix everything and when i dont and something happens i blame myself. I want to be the one to fix everyone and have everyone else be happy and at peace.i just take there proublems as my own and it kinda screws me up a lot... but its k cuz im trying to change my ways and still be there for people but try not to take it so personal....
School wise this year deff. sucks more then last year. dont have to many friends in any of my classes and im not doin that well in any of my classes but i've been making new friends so i guess it works. grades arnt as good this year but i've been kinda distracted by my personal life. and i miss amy elizabith scott so much, so glad she got out of her hell house but it sucks her being so far away in holly but all that counts is that she is happy and is having a good time.
anyways on a happier note i might be going to inferno this friday and its gona be a blast. :) and soon going to see amy !
So ya you no when everyone tells you getting ur linces changes everything. It really has, its just nice being able to be more dependent on myself and find my ways threw places. Even thou it does seem like ur friends do start to take advantage of you to drive them everywhere but thats when u no to drawl the line.
So i quite working at kroger... it was really needed and i couldent take the rumors and lies. i had enough stress in my life where i didnt need that place to help me along to add more. so i figured i'd do myself a favor and get out of there before it started getting to me. havent found or tried to get another one till school gets better and i get more stable.
hehe the normal life has been a roller coaster. i never no what im gona wake up to. lately its been getting better but some how when i get almost completly better something happens and i fall back again. but hopefully everything will even out. I've also learned a few new things about myself. i've noticed that i can talk to people and help them but then i become ingaged into there life and want to fix everything and when i dont and something happens i blame myself. I want to be the one to fix everyone and have everyone else be happy and at peace.i just take there proublems as my own and it kinda screws me up a lot... but its k cuz im trying to change my ways and still be there for people but try not to take it so personal....
School wise this year deff. sucks more then last year. dont have to many friends in any of my classes and im not doin that well in any of my classes but i've been making new friends so i guess it works. grades arnt as good this year but i've been kinda distracted by my personal life. and i miss amy elizabith scott so much, so glad she got out of her hell house but it sucks her being so far away in holly but all that counts is that she is happy and is having a good time.
anyways on a happier note i might be going to inferno this friday and its gona be a blast. :) and soon going to see amy !