thats better...
ok, i slept a bit, all is well, but that was ridiculous.
now i feel like watching i heart huckabees, i miss jason schwartzman.... the old phantom planet videos i've been watching are just teasing me... though he is adorable when he drums.
but as i'm now not tired for some ungodly reason i think i'm going to continue to investigate my latest idea for a possible future. you people are going to think i'm ridiculous, i think i'm fucking ridiculous, but it seems so perfect is scares me. my new found ambition is to be a university librarian. i love huge libraries and old books, i love to organize things, am slightly obsessive compulsive and I HATE LOUD NOISES. There are classes that involve researching the media, how people take in information even sociological studies, and the history.... and you get paid as much as a professor.
the only problem is that concordia doesn't offer what i need... mgill however does. i had my heart set on concodia... but after some research i've found that mcgill is somewhat prettier, and now you may be thinking "looks shouldn't have anything to do with it" but i dissagree, i could not go to school in some boring, new rectangular building for which it can only be said that it is "structurally logical" i don't want logic in my archetecture, i want to get lost in a ridiculous maze which even after 3 years i will still not understand but know that people have had the same problem in the same building for hundreds of years before me. and i want vines creeping up the walls and pillars and winding stairs and huge extravagant arched windows that give my a view of the campus rich with history. and mcgill is slightly older...
my god, what a rant, i appologize. and apparently mcgill is ranked one of the best universities in canada, like #3 or something... i'm going to look into that more to make sure i'm not lying. At this point i'm struck with the sudden fear of... "what if i don't get in?" oh dear... i wish they would make it easier for me to know. ah well, on goes the research.
i've had ideas before but never one so... sound. to actually come to a conclusion on what you want to do with your life is really rather terrifying. of course i could change my mind by next week, but i have never been this positive.
love always,
anna
now i feel like watching i heart huckabees, i miss jason schwartzman.... the old phantom planet videos i've been watching are just teasing me... though he is adorable when he drums.
but as i'm now not tired for some ungodly reason i think i'm going to continue to investigate my latest idea for a possible future. you people are going to think i'm ridiculous, i think i'm fucking ridiculous, but it seems so perfect is scares me. my new found ambition is to be a university librarian. i love huge libraries and old books, i love to organize things, am slightly obsessive compulsive and I HATE LOUD NOISES. There are classes that involve researching the media, how people take in information even sociological studies, and the history.... and you get paid as much as a professor.
the only problem is that concordia doesn't offer what i need... mgill however does. i had my heart set on concodia... but after some research i've found that mcgill is somewhat prettier, and now you may be thinking "looks shouldn't have anything to do with it" but i dissagree, i could not go to school in some boring, new rectangular building for which it can only be said that it is "structurally logical" i don't want logic in my archetecture, i want to get lost in a ridiculous maze which even after 3 years i will still not understand but know that people have had the same problem in the same building for hundreds of years before me. and i want vines creeping up the walls and pillars and winding stairs and huge extravagant arched windows that give my a view of the campus rich with history. and mcgill is slightly older...
my god, what a rant, i appologize. and apparently mcgill is ranked one of the best universities in canada, like #3 or something... i'm going to look into that more to make sure i'm not lying. At this point i'm struck with the sudden fear of... "what if i don't get in?" oh dear... i wish they would make it easier for me to know. ah well, on goes the research.
i've had ideas before but never one so... sound. to actually come to a conclusion on what you want to do with your life is really rather terrifying. of course i could change my mind by next week, but i have never been this positive.
love always,
anna