great jorb, homestar!
i passed my senior project with no conditions...wooofuckinghoo!! thats a major achievement when more than half of the senior class passed with conditions, which they had to make up. suckers......
i have my community service hours done because i'm using the time when i was an aide for my advanced guitar class at school. i desperately want school to end by the way, cos its obviously sucks and there are only about 5 weeks left. the senioritus bug bit me a long time ago, and now it's laying eggs in my heart and they are starting to hatch...sorry if that sounds nasty, but every senior has that drained feeling which i posses. it will never end soon enough, however.
for graduation, my mom invited just about all of my extended family to go to the ceremony and then for a BBQ at my house....yay.... :-\ i dont even want a huge party for me. it would depress me as opposed to making me happy. ive invited two friends of mine, but i don't even know if they can make it...i need them to help me escape the grip of my family and go somewhere where i can reflect and maybe even cry. i know i will be bombarded with questions from my family, like "so where are you headed next year?" "what are you going to do with youre life?" i just dont want to deal with it right now. i just want to live my life, explore the world and make up for all the times that ive spent at home dicking around, depressed, instead of having friends like a normal teen and having fun. im sick of my family and their snappiness toward one another. i dont think a day goes by that i dont overhear some kind of argument or bickering between my parentals and sisters. i honestly believe that i am the only civilized one in the family. the one who tries his best to bring peace, only to have it trampled underfoot. i need to evade this hell and seek my utopia.
i hate this town so much. Weare is a pimple on the ass of the world. i have no job because theres no place to work. i still take the bus to and from school everyday cos i dont have my license and no money to buy a car, which i would need a job for because its doubtful that my parentals will pay for any of it. i see these stupid little sophomores at school with their cell phones and their decent vehicles that without a doubt, their parents paid for, because they let their children walk all over them. i want to slash their tires and smash their fucking cell phones. goddamn yuppies....
and then there is her. who came from the heavens above and blessed me with impeccable happiness. she is the sweetest human being i know. she is a goddess in everyway possible. thank you for perfection. ♥
My dog, Cinder.
isn't she the cutest dog youve ever seen???