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its 2:29 am and i have many movies and series to watch but thought I'll post an entry... i just watched Anti Christ... a very disturbing movie to watch i don't believe my 13 year old brother watched this movie before me and actually recommended me to watch it... just to tell you all how disturbing the movie is i shall tell you that there is a scene where the girl cuts off her clitoris with scissors... lol it all seemed very weird and i got a strange feeling watching that movie... anyways its one hell of a movie i don't believe i missed it after the movie being with me for so long...
I am really scared right now because I am the worst when it comes to decisions... I've never really made hard decisions myself i always let somebody else choose it for me or i toss a coin and let chance decide because i know that i might regret it if i truly decide for myself and if it is somebody else that made the decision for me then i can blame it on that person or just my rotten luck... but i think its time i decide things for myself... I've done the usual things normally humans do which is weigh the pros and the cons but i don't really know... I've never done things so far in my life that i truly regret... i mean if i die right this second i can die a happy man because i know I've done all i could and i've enjoyed everything as much as i possibly could... I've loved with all i can and i have been loved as much as possible... this is one of the main reason i want to die young because i think its as we grow older that we tend to make more mistakes in our lives... I've not done things so far that i want to change in my life... In my life so far there is nothing i would want to change because i think everything i did and everything that was done to me has taught me something and i've learned from all of it so if it wasn't for all those things i wouldn't be who I am today and i like being me today and i know that is a good thing but i don't know how long this is going to last...
I don't know for how long i can say that i have a girl that truly loves me for who i am at the end of the day and sleep peacefully... Because i know for a fact that things like this don't last without consequences...
"when all of your wishes are granted, many of your dreams will be destroyed.." Lets see how far that is true...
I am really scared right now because I am the worst when it comes to decisions... I've never really made hard decisions myself i always let somebody else choose it for me or i toss a coin and let chance decide because i know that i might regret it if i truly decide for myself and if it is somebody else that made the decision for me then i can blame it on that person or just my rotten luck... but i think its time i decide things for myself... I've done the usual things normally humans do which is weigh the pros and the cons but i don't really know... I've never done things so far in my life that i truly regret... i mean if i die right this second i can die a happy man because i know I've done all i could and i've enjoyed everything as much as i possibly could... I've loved with all i can and i have been loved as much as possible... this is one of the main reason i want to die young because i think its as we grow older that we tend to make more mistakes in our lives... I've not done things so far that i want to change in my life... In my life so far there is nothing i would want to change because i think everything i did and everything that was done to me has taught me something and i've learned from all of it so if it wasn't for all those things i wouldn't be who I am today and i like being me today and i know that is a good thing but i don't know how long this is going to last...
I don't know for how long i can say that i have a girl that truly loves me for who i am at the end of the day and sleep peacefully... Because i know for a fact that things like this don't last without consequences...
"when all of your wishes are granted, many of your dreams will be destroyed.." Lets see how far that is true...