And I chose to be alone, again...
I know this will happened again and again. Living alone makes me so lonely. It happened when I was in secondary school. I didn’t join any gang (skema group & naughty group etc). But I succeed in my school days…I feel sad but life have to go on. Being alone taught me to be independent, planning, possessive etc. Once, when I was in Matriculation, each of us has our own iron. Mostly, we didn’t share things and spoke very little. No chemistry. Every one of us has other good friend and hangs around in different dorm. How can we live like that for a year??
Friends come and go. They have their own life and family. I cannot depend on them. Yes, I’m jealous for those who have best friend. Or, did I catch an Andartu virus. You know, when a lady reaches certain age but still single, she will act cold. I know a few people acting like this. I don’t want to be like that too. Ha! Ha! Or maybe I’m just an Otaku or snob or whatever. It’s not easy for me to make friends with everybody bcoz of my nature that I’m a selective. I hate when people ignoring me without telling me what I’ve done wrong. Let’s be honest friend! I like being honest and speak of my mind (this is the reason why I always being misunderstood).
We forgive and forget. Life goes on.. I said to myself on and on. Hope to be a strong lady. I can cry whenever I want bcoz I’m human (but my tears are very ‘expensive’). Maybe I’m too emotional about certain things. Let it be! Just pack your things and go! My heart told me to be patient. Be still my heart. Don’t just leave without settle all problems. I’m lucky to have parent that support me. They are my reason to live. So, this is the picture of my house after moving day, forgot to take picture of the actual moving day. Adoi la!! I’ll update the house after completed re-arrange.