This week, pt.1
Monday:
Did something stupid on Monday. Stupid/great.
This thing where you write someone a letter expressing all of your feelings, particularly negative, and then you seal it, and never actually send it. It's somehow worked its way into pop psychology, but I don't know where it originates from. The idea is to allow yourself to say absolutely anything, and express your feelings by actually writing them out. After that, actually sending it becomes academic and unnecessary, because the point was for you to express yourself and stop sitting on your feelings, and not to actually tell them off.
I did that on Monday. Except, I actually sent it. Well, it was a Facebook message, which makes it kind of lame, but it was appropriately long and rambling. I sent it to some woman who'd hurt my feelings on numerous occasions (none of you know her), mostly without her even knowing. I laid into her pretty good, but inevitably I ended up writing about how confused my feelings had been, and the way I'd reacted didn't really have as much to do with her as it did with me.
I felt free that entire afternoon, and felt great about it. And then I actually sent the message later that night, and I started freaking out.
WHY WOULD I ACTUALLY SEND THAT?? It was an insane thing to do, and I'd honestly not thought at all about what her reaction would be (she is a friend of mine, btw).
Anyway, all worked out for the best. It was weird for a while, at least for me, but I felt better pretty soon.
Would write more about the week, but I'm off to another temp job- just a one-day thing, this time. At a legal library. Should be super boring. Will let you know.
edit:
A few minutes, but this one is short:
Tuesday:
Tuesday I had a meeting at my old temp agency, so I could go find some work. They called me in to do a video resume, sort of: there's this thing now where in addition to your resume and whatever else, you can record a short video just giving a thumbnail sketch about you and your qualifications, so the potential employers can get a vibe reading off of you, instead of just seeing a bunch of stuff written down on a paper.
On a related note, you never realize how many weird facial expressions you make, until you record yourself making a brief 2-minute speech. Wow. I have a habit of looking up and away when I'm thinking about something or trying to remember something, which looks kind of odd, seeing it. I wonder if people think I'm being dishonest when I do it (sometimes I do it a LOT), though I'm actually just trying to remember details, or find the right words. Other than my standard over-usage of the word "uh" or "um," that was the big thing I noticed. I do feel like these things are pretty easy to correct...it's just that you never know you're doing them.
Anyway, everything went well, and the lady who was helping me out there (my...agent? What do we call these people?) mentioned the library gig which I'm on my way to in literally....45 seconds.
Did something stupid on Monday. Stupid/great.
This thing where you write someone a letter expressing all of your feelings, particularly negative, and then you seal it, and never actually send it. It's somehow worked its way into pop psychology, but I don't know where it originates from. The idea is to allow yourself to say absolutely anything, and express your feelings by actually writing them out. After that, actually sending it becomes academic and unnecessary, because the point was for you to express yourself and stop sitting on your feelings, and not to actually tell them off.
I did that on Monday. Except, I actually sent it. Well, it was a Facebook message, which makes it kind of lame, but it was appropriately long and rambling. I sent it to some woman who'd hurt my feelings on numerous occasions (none of you know her), mostly without her even knowing. I laid into her pretty good, but inevitably I ended up writing about how confused my feelings had been, and the way I'd reacted didn't really have as much to do with her as it did with me.
I felt free that entire afternoon, and felt great about it. And then I actually sent the message later that night, and I started freaking out.
WHY WOULD I ACTUALLY SEND THAT?? It was an insane thing to do, and I'd honestly not thought at all about what her reaction would be (she is a friend of mine, btw).
Anyway, all worked out for the best. It was weird for a while, at least for me, but I felt better pretty soon.
Would write more about the week, but I'm off to another temp job- just a one-day thing, this time. At a legal library. Should be super boring. Will let you know.
edit:
A few minutes, but this one is short:
Tuesday:
Tuesday I had a meeting at my old temp agency, so I could go find some work. They called me in to do a video resume, sort of: there's this thing now where in addition to your resume and whatever else, you can record a short video just giving a thumbnail sketch about you and your qualifications, so the potential employers can get a vibe reading off of you, instead of just seeing a bunch of stuff written down on a paper.
On a related note, you never realize how many weird facial expressions you make, until you record yourself making a brief 2-minute speech. Wow. I have a habit of looking up and away when I'm thinking about something or trying to remember something, which looks kind of odd, seeing it. I wonder if people think I'm being dishonest when I do it (sometimes I do it a LOT), though I'm actually just trying to remember details, or find the right words. Other than my standard over-usage of the word "uh" or "um," that was the big thing I noticed. I do feel like these things are pretty easy to correct...it's just that you never know you're doing them.
Anyway, everything went well, and the lady who was helping me out there (my...agent? What do we call these people?) mentioned the library gig which I'm on my way to in literally....45 seconds.