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you know i try not to think about things and it just keeps getting harder because it always gets back into my head. i am trying to be your friend and you have no clue how hard it is to do that, especially with someone else around all the time. i really dont know what to think anymore. you have no clue what it is like to hear you say that you love me and that you miss me and then i find out you are with him the next day. you say that he is a friend, but i know that maybe you consider him a friend, but i think he probably wants to be with you or something. this is so hard on me you dont even know. i dont know how much longer you expect me to be here to fall back on. i feel like shit all the time and i am tired of being upset about this. if you are really upset as you say you are then why are you doing all of this? why do you need this so bad? Because your friend did this with her boyfriend so you thought you would try it to? i dont really know jess? what do you expect me to do....do you honestly expect me to wait around for you when you are out with other guys? i dont really think thats fair. everytime i look at the situation it doesnt look very good. i dont honestly know how much longer i can be around for you? time is running out...