Profile and Pose
it hit me this weekend that my life is a complete waste.
all i ever do anymore is eat sleep party fuck and shit. i hook up with random guys pretty much every weekend. i cant stand to not be fucked up on something or another. i dont go do things anymore exept for party. i find myself not wanting to be around my parents just because i cant be fucked up around them or tell them exactly how my night went or what i have been doing. my whole life to my parents is a lie. the only people that truely know me....well i dont think anyone truely knows me, i dont even know me. im not the same amanda that i used to be. not that outgoing, sweet, smart girl that everyone loved back in high school. im becoming a statistic. i cant find a guy that actually wants me and not just a piece of me. i dont even feel like my friends really like me anymore. even my roomies. i dont save money, i would rather blow it on this and that, i dont have one penny in savings. living pay check to paycheck. i havent enrolled in anything as far as schooling..i dont know, i just dont know anymore...
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all i ever do anymore is eat sleep party fuck and shit. i hook up with random guys pretty much every weekend. i cant stand to not be fucked up on something or another. i dont go do things anymore exept for party. i find myself not wanting to be around my parents just because i cant be fucked up around them or tell them exactly how my night went or what i have been doing. my whole life to my parents is a lie. the only people that truely know me....well i dont think anyone truely knows me, i dont even know me. im not the same amanda that i used to be. not that outgoing, sweet, smart girl that everyone loved back in high school. im becoming a statistic. i cant find a guy that actually wants me and not just a piece of me. i dont even feel like my friends really like me anymore. even my roomies. i dont save money, i would rather blow it on this and that, i dont have one penny in savings. living pay check to paycheck. i havent enrolled in anything as far as schooling..i dont know, i just dont know anymore...
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