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WELL FOR ALL OF YOU HAVE BEEN ANTICIPATING ONE OF THESE CRAP ENTRIES THAT LEAD YOU ONTO A DOWNWARD SPIRAL INTO MY OWN MENTAL HELL.....THIS ISNT ONE OF THOSE THIS TIME. LETS START WITH WHAT HAS BEEN GOING ON WITH ME. I HAVENT REALLY BEEN DOING MUCH BECAUSE OF SCHOOL AND WORK CONTROLLING MY LIFE. I MEAN I LIKE WORKING BECAUSE IM NOT BROKE AND SCHOOL BECAUSE ALL THE DRAMA THAT GOES ON THERE. WELL LETS START WITH A CERTAIN SOMEONE WHO I HAVE PROBABLY THE WORST HISTORY WITH IN THE WHOLE WORLD. I THINK WE ALL KNOW WHO IM TALKING ABOUT SO I DONT THINK THAT I NEED TO CLARIFY WHO I AM SPEAKING OF. I HAVE BEEN THINKING ABOUT A LOT OF STUFF AGAIN. I REALIZED THAT I DO PISS YOU OFF A LOT AND THAT I HURT YOUR FEELINGS AS WELL. I KNOW THAT IM AN ASSHOLE AND THAT I HAVE BEEN NOTHING BUT A JERK TO YOU. BECAUSE OF THAT I JUST WANT TO SAY IM SORRY. I MEAN IT THIS TIME. I KNOW I SAID BEFORE THAT I WOULDNT DO IT ANYMORE BUT I DID AND I ONLY DID THAT BECAUSE OF SOME OF THE CHOICES THAT YOU MADE. OTHER THAN THAT WHEREVER IT GOES IT GOES, BUT I KNOW THAT YOU PROLLY DONT WANT IT TO GO ANYWHERE AND THAT IS FINE TOO.
NOW TO ANOTHER SUBJECT. WHAT IS UP WITH EVERYONE? THERE IS LIKE SO MUCH SPACE BETWEEN EVERYONE NOW. ITS CRAZY HOW JUST A COUPLE OF MONTHS AGO EVERYONE WAS SO DIFFERENT THAN WHAT THEY ARE NOW. EVERYONE WAS ALWAYS LAUGHING AND HANGING OUT AND JUST HAVING A GOOD TIME. IDK REALLY KNOW WHAT I WANTED TO GET OUT WITH THAT BUT IT IS JUST SOMETHING I HAVE BEEN THINKING ABOUT.
OF COURSE MY RELATIONSHIP PROBLEMS ARE STILL CRAP...STILL SINGLE FOR ANYONE OUT THERE WHO WOULD EVER WANT A LOSER OF A GUY LIKE ME. IDK I MEAN I USED TO BE SCARED TO COMMITT TO SOMETHING BUT I HAVE FINALLY GROWN OUT OF THAT. ITS MESSED UP BECAUSE EVERYONE IS ALWAYS WITH THEIR SIGNIFICANT OTHER AND THEN WHENEVER ANYONE HAS PLANS THEY GET THROWN OUT THE WINDOW FOR THE SIGNIFICANT OTHER. IT IS KIND OF MESSED UP. AND WHAT IS UP WITH EVERYONE ALWAYS FINDING PEOPLE, ACTING HAPPY EVEN THOUGH THEY REALLY ARENT, THEN BREAKING UP WITH THEM. THAT IS REALLY SCREWED UP. ALL I GUESS IM TRYING TO SAY IS THAT EVERYONE IS THROWING OUT FRIENDSHIPS AND THEY ARENT AWARE THAT THEY ARE DOING IT. ALSO THAT I AM FINALLY GETTING TIRED OF BEING SINGLE. THERE IS NOTHING I CAN DO TO CHANGE THAT FATE BECAUSE IM NOT THE KIND OF GUY THAT MANY GIRLS WOULD WANNA DATE. BUT ENOUGH WITH ALL THIS SAD CRAP.
I GUESS I GOT OUT A SMALL PORTION OF WHAT ALL WAS ON MY MIND RECENTLY. I WOULD LIKE TO HEAR BACK FROM SOME PEOPLE ON THIS JUST TO KNOW THAT IM NOT WASTING MY TIME BY TYPING OUT ALL OF THIS AND NOBODY EVEN CARING ABOUT IT UNTIL I POST AGAIN.
LATER DAYS.....
NOW TO ANOTHER SUBJECT. WHAT IS UP WITH EVERYONE? THERE IS LIKE SO MUCH SPACE BETWEEN EVERYONE NOW. ITS CRAZY HOW JUST A COUPLE OF MONTHS AGO EVERYONE WAS SO DIFFERENT THAN WHAT THEY ARE NOW. EVERYONE WAS ALWAYS LAUGHING AND HANGING OUT AND JUST HAVING A GOOD TIME. IDK REALLY KNOW WHAT I WANTED TO GET OUT WITH THAT BUT IT IS JUST SOMETHING I HAVE BEEN THINKING ABOUT.
OF COURSE MY RELATIONSHIP PROBLEMS ARE STILL CRAP...STILL SINGLE FOR ANYONE OUT THERE WHO WOULD EVER WANT A LOSER OF A GUY LIKE ME. IDK I MEAN I USED TO BE SCARED TO COMMITT TO SOMETHING BUT I HAVE FINALLY GROWN OUT OF THAT. ITS MESSED UP BECAUSE EVERYONE IS ALWAYS WITH THEIR SIGNIFICANT OTHER AND THEN WHENEVER ANYONE HAS PLANS THEY GET THROWN OUT THE WINDOW FOR THE SIGNIFICANT OTHER. IT IS KIND OF MESSED UP. AND WHAT IS UP WITH EVERYONE ALWAYS FINDING PEOPLE, ACTING HAPPY EVEN THOUGH THEY REALLY ARENT, THEN BREAKING UP WITH THEM. THAT IS REALLY SCREWED UP. ALL I GUESS IM TRYING TO SAY IS THAT EVERYONE IS THROWING OUT FRIENDSHIPS AND THEY ARENT AWARE THAT THEY ARE DOING IT. ALSO THAT I AM FINALLY GETTING TIRED OF BEING SINGLE. THERE IS NOTHING I CAN DO TO CHANGE THAT FATE BECAUSE IM NOT THE KIND OF GUY THAT MANY GIRLS WOULD WANNA DATE. BUT ENOUGH WITH ALL THIS SAD CRAP.
I GUESS I GOT OUT A SMALL PORTION OF WHAT ALL WAS ON MY MIND RECENTLY. I WOULD LIKE TO HEAR BACK FROM SOME PEOPLE ON THIS JUST TO KNOW THAT IM NOT WASTING MY TIME BY TYPING OUT ALL OF THIS AND NOBODY EVEN CARING ABOUT IT UNTIL I POST AGAIN.
LATER DAYS.....