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Its March and this year has been absolutely heartbreaking. I am lost in a way I would have never expected. I'm 30 years old and feel like a little kid abandoned. The pain of it all is kicking my ass. 2005 has taken the cake so far and I feel like I am spiraling. I need to pray but feel like I can't really even though I have been. I can't even cry which leaves me no release. I need to regroup and do not know how so I act "normal and in control" and hope for the best.