The Decemberist

[antixxx]

my empire of dirt
i will make you hurt
a million miles away
i would find a way

i didn't know why
but didn't ask questions
because it was the first time in my life
where i did something right

I'm so very fucking lost right now. I've all but kicked my more destructive habits, although the urge to just overdose and spend a month getting better at omart seems like a very good idea.

Besides, when you near death, people pity you. This shit with the 'omgcancer' stole my life. I'm just a ghost in this shell of a body.

i'll keep this as a constant reminder
of the nights i spent holding on to her
and rest assured i'm moving on
i miss you less with each day you're gone

It's two dollars short on a five minute deadline, and I never seem to get to the top. I work hard, they want harder. I smile, they want it wider. I jump, they want higher. I cry, and they circle around and laugh their cruel laugh and all I ever needed was somebody that cared.

did i disappoint you
or let you down
should i be feeling guilty
or let the judges frown
cause i saw the end
before we began
yes i saw you were blinded
and i knew i had won

so i took what's mine
by eternal right
took your soul out
into the night

it may be over
but it won't stop there
i am here for you
if you'll only care

you touched my heart
you touched my soul
you changed my life
and all my goals
love is blind but that I knew and
my heart was blinded by you

i've kissed your lips and held your head
shared your dreams and shared your bed
i know you well, i knew your smell
i've been addicted to you

I just need some ice and some pain killers. I'm sure I'll be fine.