i feel recording my dreams is an update of my thoguhts
i just realized that, well i'm not using this journal as a place to record events, but rather my thoughts, and that's ok, but since i'm not even recording what i think, recording my dreams is a more intamate record of my thoughts.
last night i dreams of a decapitated female attached to a bug's body.
DEAD - "To see the dead in your dream, forewarns that you are being influenced by negative people and are hanging around the wrong crowd. You may suffer material loss. This dream may also be a way for you to resolve your feelings with those who have passed on.
DECAPITATION - "To dream that you are decapitated, indicates that you are not thinking clearly are are refusing to see the truth. You need to confront the situation or the person despite the pain and discomfort you might feel in doing so. The dream also suggests that you have the tendency to act before you think.
BUG - "To see a bug in your dream, suggests that you are worried about something. It is symbolic of your anxieties and/or fears. What is literally bugging you? Consider also the popular phrase "bitten by the bug" to imply your strong emotional ties or involvement to some activity/interest/hobby. Alternatively, the bug may be representative of your sexual thoughts."-www.dreammoods.com
my interpreation is that i am uncormfortable with the way i am raising my child so far. there's always party people coming in and out, always marijuana smoke in her face, and constant yelling between the father and i.
so here i go back to my house for possible discussion of these issues...there might be no change, i don't know if someone will be leaving but it's always in my head that God holds me responsible for this child and i can't let her down. she still trusts me at this point.
last night i dreams of a decapitated female attached to a bug's body.
DEAD - "To see the dead in your dream, forewarns that you are being influenced by negative people and are hanging around the wrong crowd. You may suffer material loss. This dream may also be a way for you to resolve your feelings with those who have passed on.
DECAPITATION - "To dream that you are decapitated, indicates that you are not thinking clearly are are refusing to see the truth. You need to confront the situation or the person despite the pain and discomfort you might feel in doing so. The dream also suggests that you have the tendency to act before you think.
BUG - "To see a bug in your dream, suggests that you are worried about something. It is symbolic of your anxieties and/or fears. What is literally bugging you? Consider also the popular phrase "bitten by the bug" to imply your strong emotional ties or involvement to some activity/interest/hobby. Alternatively, the bug may be representative of your sexual thoughts."-www.dreammoods.com
my interpreation is that i am uncormfortable with the way i am raising my child so far. there's always party people coming in and out, always marijuana smoke in her face, and constant yelling between the father and i.
so here i go back to my house for possible discussion of these issues...there might be no change, i don't know if someone will be leaving but it's always in my head that God holds me responsible for this child and i can't let her down. she still trusts me at this point.