i've got a lot to do...!...before lunch.
i just had to throw the "before lunch" in there cuz of the old Cheerios commercial. *i am dork*
i do have a lot to do today. some is already done. i've washed dishes and one load of 3 clothes. Syc went to jail again yesterday and the cops took his $$ and told him he had to come back the next fuckin' day and get it!!! i was pissed *fuck the police* so he dropped me off at my mom and dad's so i could do chores while he made the drive-that's ok with me! totally efficient! then he's coming back, i've got to deposit some of that in the bank, then pay the gas bill. his mom is paying our water so we can get it turned back on before the baby comes...and i got car insurance extended so i could pay gas so we'd have HOT water. ha yeah. good thing i extended the insurance bc that was the only way i could have got him out of jail. eep! then i've got to go raise hell at the Enterprise office bc we havent gotten our $75 deposit back! i'm nervous only bc i'm not used to
making my way,
but i'll give it a shot, and if they don't listen to me...my mother-in-law is coming up there, i will threaten them with that and they don't want to hear it. only we'd know.
we've changed Codi's name from Codi Shyne to Codi Lita. you can call her Codi or Codi Lita as one name. Codi means Helper and Lita is has spanish influence and means Fruitful. so that is a beautiful name to me and fits her parents ^_^
i had a dream where i was in the back yard of my old house (i dream about it a lot) and i was on top of my dad's storage building. there was a little society outside there, but there was this one big guy who had a crush on me and we fucked and it was good and he asked me to be in a relationship with him and i said no but we could be fuck buddies. LOL. regardless of what happened the description for the dream dictionary is this:
MAN-"If you are a woman and dream that you are in the arms of a man, suggests that you are accepting and welcoming your stronger assertive personality."-www.dreammoods.com
and i am surprising. i'm taking more charge/control over others and like i emphasized "making my way." compared to just sitting back and letting shit happen. i've stuggled with this bc i used to have such good luck that i could let life come to me, but i've been learning lately, growing up, you have to make it for yourself, if you let things happen, then they will exactly that HAPPEN. bad things possibly and you don't have to suffer the consequences. that's me learning to be a mom! actually it's a little something Syc taught me to. he didn't try to teach me, but i guess i learned it from him by watching.
in other news: i'm getting nervous about labor and excited about the baby girl. Marie said yesterday to a newly pregnant friend "Babies aren't a bad thing they are a blessing" i thought that was sweet and it made me feel good.
i do have a lot to do today. some is already done. i've washed dishes and one load of 3 clothes. Syc went to jail again yesterday and the cops took his $$ and told him he had to come back the next fuckin' day and get it!!! i was pissed *fuck the police* so he dropped me off at my mom and dad's so i could do chores while he made the drive-that's ok with me! totally efficient! then he's coming back, i've got to deposit some of that in the bank, then pay the gas bill. his mom is paying our water so we can get it turned back on before the baby comes...and i got car insurance extended so i could pay gas so we'd have HOT water. ha yeah. good thing i extended the insurance bc that was the only way i could have got him out of jail. eep! then i've got to go raise hell at the Enterprise office bc we havent gotten our $75 deposit back! i'm nervous only bc i'm not used to
making my way,
but i'll give it a shot, and if they don't listen to me...my mother-in-law is coming up there, i will threaten them with that and they don't want to hear it. only we'd know.
we've changed Codi's name from Codi Shyne to Codi Lita. you can call her Codi or Codi Lita as one name. Codi means Helper and Lita is has spanish influence and means Fruitful. so that is a beautiful name to me and fits her parents ^_^
i had a dream where i was in the back yard of my old house (i dream about it a lot) and i was on top of my dad's storage building. there was a little society outside there, but there was this one big guy who had a crush on me and we fucked and it was good and he asked me to be in a relationship with him and i said no but we could be fuck buddies. LOL. regardless of what happened the description for the dream dictionary is this:
MAN-"If you are a woman and dream that you are in the arms of a man, suggests that you are accepting and welcoming your stronger assertive personality."-www.dreammoods.com
and i am surprising. i'm taking more charge/control over others and like i emphasized "making my way." compared to just sitting back and letting shit happen. i've stuggled with this bc i used to have such good luck that i could let life come to me, but i've been learning lately, growing up, you have to make it for yourself, if you let things happen, then they will exactly that HAPPEN. bad things possibly and you don't have to suffer the consequences. that's me learning to be a mom! actually it's a little something Syc taught me to. he didn't try to teach me, but i guess i learned it from him by watching.
in other news: i'm getting nervous about labor and excited about the baby girl. Marie said yesterday to a newly pregnant friend "Babies aren't a bad thing they are a blessing" i thought that was sweet and it made me feel good.