shitport
this morning i had a dream. i had a dream that syc and i were at a party, an outside party, and we were in our car, i was pregnant (as i am now) but i took a tab and ended up smoking half a cigarette...a Camel Menthol that tasted very good i might add :) then the field began to flood, and this is the second dream i've had with syc where we were surrounded my merky waters. it flooded up to our shoulders and up to the top of the windows of our car. then i woke up.
water-"To see muddy or dirty water in your dream, indicates that you are wallowing in your negative emotions. You may need to devote some time to clarify your mind and find internal peace. Alternatively, it suggests that your thinking/judgment is unclear and clouded.
"To dream that water is rising up in your house, signifies your struggles and overwhelming emotions." -www.dreammoods.com
car-"Vehicles that you ride in usually reflect two things; the direction you are heading in life, and your body. (the thing you travel or "ride" through life in)"
water-"a dream of muddy water foretells sadness or sorry for the dreamer through hearing of an illness or death of someone he/she knows well. Dirty water warns of unscrupulous people who would bring you to ruin"-www.sleeps.com
but i had a lot of fun at the party, and when i awoke i was sad. sad, bc i was reminded how carefree i used to be. is this what he meant when he says i've changed? all morning i contemplated what syc wants to do. move to Dallas. could i, even before the baby is born, just say ok and fuck all this shreveport shit (hints the title) and go and live with his friends like he said we could, even with the baby. but i pondered bc i've got a lot of kick ass furniture and if we left, how could we take it? and i pondered bc my health insurance is free with louisiana.
so i was sad bc maybe that's how i used to be? just say whatever and go but now it seems i'm trying to "get established" but really i DO want to up and go, but i need to "get ahead." too bad i guess i've got baggage now and i need to be able to move myself, and BE established anywhere i go. it still seems more important to me to keep my companion than to treasure furniture, but i'm so confused bc i am working towards how life is SUPPOSED to be, but in my mind, i'm combating that with how i think life SHOULD be.
as for the meaning of the dream goes: i think it already came true or is coming true. today, while i am at the prenatal tour of the hospital, matt calls and my dad takes a message. he got a ticket in the rental car. it could end up with bad consequences. i just wish he would get back in town soon...10:09pm...i just called him and told him to be careful.
my mom has been offering me her cell phone for the past 2 nights bc she says i'm so close to delivery she doesn't want me to be at home, alone, without transportation, hehe.
my baby is getting so big and my tummy so tight, when she moves IT TICKLES!! LOL, she hits my muscles and makes it instinctively giggle.
water-"To see muddy or dirty water in your dream, indicates that you are wallowing in your negative emotions. You may need to devote some time to clarify your mind and find internal peace. Alternatively, it suggests that your thinking/judgment is unclear and clouded.
"To dream that water is rising up in your house, signifies your struggles and overwhelming emotions." -www.dreammoods.com
car-"Vehicles that you ride in usually reflect two things; the direction you are heading in life, and your body. (the thing you travel or "ride" through life in)"
water-"a dream of muddy water foretells sadness or sorry for the dreamer through hearing of an illness or death of someone he/she knows well. Dirty water warns of unscrupulous people who would bring you to ruin"-www.sleeps.com
but i had a lot of fun at the party, and when i awoke i was sad. sad, bc i was reminded how carefree i used to be. is this what he meant when he says i've changed? all morning i contemplated what syc wants to do. move to Dallas. could i, even before the baby is born, just say ok and fuck all this shreveport shit (hints the title) and go and live with his friends like he said we could, even with the baby. but i pondered bc i've got a lot of kick ass furniture and if we left, how could we take it? and i pondered bc my health insurance is free with louisiana.
so i was sad bc maybe that's how i used to be? just say whatever and go but now it seems i'm trying to "get established" but really i DO want to up and go, but i need to "get ahead." too bad i guess i've got baggage now and i need to be able to move myself, and BE established anywhere i go. it still seems more important to me to keep my companion than to treasure furniture, but i'm so confused bc i am working towards how life is SUPPOSED to be, but in my mind, i'm combating that with how i think life SHOULD be.
as for the meaning of the dream goes: i think it already came true or is coming true. today, while i am at the prenatal tour of the hospital, matt calls and my dad takes a message. he got a ticket in the rental car. it could end up with bad consequences. i just wish he would get back in town soon...10:09pm...i just called him and told him to be careful.
my mom has been offering me her cell phone for the past 2 nights bc she says i'm so close to delivery she doesn't want me to be at home, alone, without transportation, hehe.
my baby is getting so big and my tummy so tight, when she moves IT TICKLES!! LOL, she hits my muscles and makes it instinctively giggle.