I wish I was eliza thornberry.
Just stuck here watching Eliza Thornberry.
I want to leave because it's shitty here, but I know if I go home Ill feel better cuz I won't have to deal with our stupid bulllshit, but then Ill start to miss him and I want to be with him again.
Its times likes these though that I just want to scream and walk away. Normally I treat people like frosting on the cake... just an added bonus and i dont get too use to them so when I get pissed and I can just walk away and not let it bother me. Few people have gotten passed that stage and he is one of them of course....
And I know this whole thing is my fault, but apologies really dont mean anything. They really dont fix anything. So I just say fuck it.
And it just all builds up. Im here when I dont want to be because I dont have a car. I dont have a car because he crashed it. And I suppose Im bitter everytime I see a Black Honda Civic... but then I realize I cant be mad at him for it... cuz it wasnt his fault... he didnt do it on purpose... I just wished I had my car back... not just cuz I would bne able to leave right now... but I really did like my car... even if i didnt keep it clean all the time... it was still [my] car.
Its funny how we have our ways of isolating each other from each other when we're in these moods. Most of the times its using an ipod, going on the computer, texting someone. We both know it gets on each others nerves but we do it anyway.
I was thinking of how on my first day of school... of walking into my classroom trying to find a familiar face to sit next to so i dont have to be alone and realizing there wont be any familiar faces... Ill just have to sit down and hope things work out somehow.
I just want to go home... but im not sure where home is. I want to be with my friends, but there is so little time with him... You know I really dont know what I want. Im just a confused high school teenager with teenage problems and this is my livejournal where it all gets spilled out.
[I do feel trapped here.... but not all the time]
I want to leave because it's shitty here, but I know if I go home Ill feel better cuz I won't have to deal with our stupid bulllshit, but then Ill start to miss him and I want to be with him again.
Its times likes these though that I just want to scream and walk away. Normally I treat people like frosting on the cake... just an added bonus and i dont get too use to them so when I get pissed and I can just walk away and not let it bother me. Few people have gotten passed that stage and he is one of them of course....
And I know this whole thing is my fault, but apologies really dont mean anything. They really dont fix anything. So I just say fuck it.
And it just all builds up. Im here when I dont want to be because I dont have a car. I dont have a car because he crashed it. And I suppose Im bitter everytime I see a Black Honda Civic... but then I realize I cant be mad at him for it... cuz it wasnt his fault... he didnt do it on purpose... I just wished I had my car back... not just cuz I would bne able to leave right now... but I really did like my car... even if i didnt keep it clean all the time... it was still [my] car.
Its funny how we have our ways of isolating each other from each other when we're in these moods. Most of the times its using an ipod, going on the computer, texting someone. We both know it gets on each others nerves but we do it anyway.
I was thinking of how on my first day of school... of walking into my classroom trying to find a familiar face to sit next to so i dont have to be alone and realizing there wont be any familiar faces... Ill just have to sit down and hope things work out somehow.
I just want to go home... but im not sure where home is. I want to be with my friends, but there is so little time with him... You know I really dont know what I want. Im just a confused high school teenager with teenage problems and this is my livejournal where it all gets spilled out.
[I do feel trapped here.... but not all the time]