I wrote this yesterday morning on Christmas Day
This has probably been the best xmas in my entire life--present-wise. I'd usually get money and blow it the next day on useless crap i don't remember ever buying. This time though, things were strangely different. I actually got some pretty cool gifts that i could actually use. I was surprised though, I must say. I wrote out a xmas list as a joke and gave it to my parents knowing them, they never get me anything. A house and food and a warm place to sleep was their present, which i appreciate. Thank you Mum, Pops. Here's what it said:
my xmas list
1. computer
2. digital camera
3. vcr/dvd
4. shoes
5. entertainment book
6. chocolate
I got 4 things out of those 6. Almost 5, because my old man wanted to take me shoe shopping on wednesday. i told him i couldn't and to leave it for Sunday. I wonder if he'll still take me. If he plans to, I'll thank him, but i'll say no. You've done too much, old man. Alright, so don't think I'm spoiled now. I was so shocked myself, I started crying, because um, i thought we were poor. I mean, my old lady ain't workin' cuz she got cancer of the colon and my old man's the only one bringin' home the bacon and we've really been strugglin' this year will bills and crap. I'm still so surprised. Pops has never gotten me anything so extravaggant. All this time, I thought he hated me. Guess I was wrong. Maybe he does love me afterall. Hmmm...maybe i should stop giving him such a hard time...and start being a respectful daughter.
Anyway, it's not all good news. There's bad news too. Alright, so I finally got a digital camera, not the one i wanted, but i guess it makes good for practice until i can save up to buy me one. so yeah, here's the bad news, i didn't really want a digital camera yet until i had a new computer, because mine is crappy, and go figure, the software doesn't work because my computer doesn't have enough memory or something, but my cousin's gonna try and fix that later. Hopefully it'll work. I took some pictures with it and i'm loving it already! So yeah, the bad news doesn't stop there...he got me the wrong entertainment book, too. i feel so sorry for my old man, at least he tried and all i can do is complain complain complain. it's alright though, it's got a couple good coupons in there...i'll buy the proper one with the $80 that my aunts & uncles gave me.
I shouldn't feel too bad. Misha got nothing compared to me. She wanted an Ipod, but they couldn't afford that apparently. She might get a car though. Hmm...wierd, how is that? My dad gave Misha this pink purse, the one with the initials on them. She doesn't like those, and she hates pink now, which used to be her favorite color. At least he tried.
But yeah anyway, i'm not done. My old man also got me a vcr/dvd combo and turns out my tv is too old and doesn't have the proper installation hooks. I knew it was too good to be true!! Well, hey it's the thought that counts right? I wonder now if my old man will buy me a new tv. Ooh, preferrably 27 inch. Boy, do i sound spoiled. Oh yeah, p.s. he even got me chocolate! Awww. I was kidding, old man!! i only wanted one thing from the list, not everything!! Makes me sad that he tried to get us everything and he works so hard so we don't go broke. Makes me cry that he did this for us. He's really a good person, he can just be a real asshole sometimes. I'm sorry I hated you sometimes. I love you, though, pops. <3 Meli.
I'm so emotional this xmas. it's okay. I'm crying so much though. I think I feel bad i didn't even hug my old man. I thanked him, but it was an awkward mumbled thanks. I didn't know what to say. My old man and I, we're not close. That's why it was weird. Anyway, I've written too much already, i should save this for my psychotherapist, eh? Just felt like i had to get all of this out before i tried to sleep. Sorry.
my xmas list
1. computer
2. digital camera
3. vcr/dvd
4. shoes
5. entertainment book
6. chocolate
I got 4 things out of those 6. Almost 5, because my old man wanted to take me shoe shopping on wednesday. i told him i couldn't and to leave it for Sunday. I wonder if he'll still take me. If he plans to, I'll thank him, but i'll say no. You've done too much, old man. Alright, so don't think I'm spoiled now. I was so shocked myself, I started crying, because um, i thought we were poor. I mean, my old lady ain't workin' cuz she got cancer of the colon and my old man's the only one bringin' home the bacon and we've really been strugglin' this year will bills and crap. I'm still so surprised. Pops has never gotten me anything so extravaggant. All this time, I thought he hated me. Guess I was wrong. Maybe he does love me afterall. Hmmm...maybe i should stop giving him such a hard time...and start being a respectful daughter.
Anyway, it's not all good news. There's bad news too. Alright, so I finally got a digital camera, not the one i wanted, but i guess it makes good for practice until i can save up to buy me one. so yeah, here's the bad news, i didn't really want a digital camera yet until i had a new computer, because mine is crappy, and go figure, the software doesn't work because my computer doesn't have enough memory or something, but my cousin's gonna try and fix that later. Hopefully it'll work. I took some pictures with it and i'm loving it already! So yeah, the bad news doesn't stop there...he got me the wrong entertainment book, too. i feel so sorry for my old man, at least he tried and all i can do is complain complain complain. it's alright though, it's got a couple good coupons in there...i'll buy the proper one with the $80 that my aunts & uncles gave me.
I shouldn't feel too bad. Misha got nothing compared to me. She wanted an Ipod, but they couldn't afford that apparently. She might get a car though. Hmm...wierd, how is that? My dad gave Misha this pink purse, the one with the initials on them. She doesn't like those, and she hates pink now, which used to be her favorite color. At least he tried.
But yeah anyway, i'm not done. My old man also got me a vcr/dvd combo and turns out my tv is too old and doesn't have the proper installation hooks. I knew it was too good to be true!! Well, hey it's the thought that counts right? I wonder now if my old man will buy me a new tv. Ooh, preferrably 27 inch. Boy, do i sound spoiled. Oh yeah, p.s. he even got me chocolate! Awww. I was kidding, old man!! i only wanted one thing from the list, not everything!! Makes me sad that he tried to get us everything and he works so hard so we don't go broke. Makes me cry that he did this for us. He's really a good person, he can just be a real asshole sometimes. I'm sorry I hated you sometimes. I love you, though, pops. <3 Meli.
I'm so emotional this xmas. it's okay. I'm crying so much though. I think I feel bad i didn't even hug my old man. I thanked him, but it was an awkward mumbled thanks. I didn't know what to say. My old man and I, we're not close. That's why it was weird. Anyway, I've written too much already, i should save this for my psychotherapist, eh? Just felt like i had to get all of this out before i tried to sleep. Sorry.