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There are some things in life where you just have to stop and say. . .wow. Those moments where you think eh, I'm not good enough for this. Why am I so lucky? That is how I feel about Keegan. He is my everything now. I know that feeling of true love where you actually love someone more than yourself. Sure, I've loved before and this may sound selfish but yeah, I was always a thought in the back of my own mind. Mostly with pride. I have a lot of pride. But just a little while ago I was lying in my bed thinking about Keegan. . .*sigh* And all of the sudden I realized that I would let him go with someone else to be happy. If I stopped making him happy I would give him up in a heartbeat so that he would be happy. That's all I really want is for my Keegan to be happy and loved somewhere. I love him and I hope to always be with him but I would let him go so he could be happier and live the most fulfilling life that he can.
Another miraculous moment happened last night at the Acoustic show where Evan was playing. Keegan was rubbing my hand I was watching him. He was rubbing the hand with the promise ring that Dan had given me. I was watching him and I realized that while I wasn't in love with Dan the ring was more to me than I let people know. I always told people that it was a nice ring and I didn't want it to just sit in my jewlery box without any use. But I knew that even though it didn't mean that I was still in love with Dan or wanted him back in anyway it meant that I was holding on to the type of relationship that me and Dan had, even if it wasn't with him. But Keegan showed me that love and support can go both ways. So after all that, I took off my ring. . .I'm completely and totally Keegan's, I hope I always will be.