Trapped.
That A OK post was a complete lie. Dont you hate it when you feel completely trapped? Feeling like there is no way out, and that you will just end up hurting everyone if you try and follow your own emotions. Well thats how I feel right now. It certainly isn't fun. I just want to tell everyone the truth, and I have started trying to do that. Its so unreasonably hard. Its also hard because I have to support myself during this ordeal. Everyone else has their own problems they have to deal with. They are their own stars in the grand constellation. Im my own star, and Ill have to keep on shining by myself, and through my own will power. Thats the only way left, I think.